What good is a heart of gold if it can't buy you happiness
I just got back from my cruise in Alaska last night. It was amazing. The sights were beautiful. The food was orgasmic. The service was impeccable. Probably the best family vacation I've ever been on. I whole-heartedly endorse Celebrity Cruise Lines. Maybe later I'll post some of the better pictures I took.
If only I was still riding that high and my entry could stop there. The truth is I've backed myself into a corner, and I've been putting off dealing with it until I got back from vacation. I failed both of my computer science classes last semester. One of them I failed in fall and was taking again. I also lost the hope scholarship. I've been telling everyone that I got screwed over when I transfered, which is partly true. However I've been overwhelmingly lazy recently, and not just when it comes to school. Really in every aspect of my life, including my personal life.
I can blame my laziness in school on a lack of passion, which is true -- I just don't care about computer science anymore. The only reason I liked it to begin with was because I enjoyed programming, but I haven't even done any in over a year. I don't even really remember how. So I think I'm going to change my major. I'm considering art - probably with a concentration in digital media. I feel like I need a creative outlet. It just sucks that I'm changing my major in my fourth year of college.
As far as my laziness in every aspect other than school, it's just unacceptable. The passion is there, I'm just wasting it.
I also realize that I've closed myself off socially, and it's totally unhealthy. I need to meet new people, have new experiences, take in new ideas. Not that I don't love the friends I have, I do, but when was the last time I hung out with them, seriously?
Anyway, if you actually read that, thank you.
If only I was still riding that high and my entry could stop there. The truth is I've backed myself into a corner, and I've been putting off dealing with it until I got back from vacation. I failed both of my computer science classes last semester. One of them I failed in fall and was taking again. I also lost the hope scholarship. I've been telling everyone that I got screwed over when I transfered, which is partly true. However I've been overwhelmingly lazy recently, and not just when it comes to school. Really in every aspect of my life, including my personal life.
I can blame my laziness in school on a lack of passion, which is true -- I just don't care about computer science anymore. The only reason I liked it to begin with was because I enjoyed programming, but I haven't even done any in over a year. I don't even really remember how. So I think I'm going to change my major. I'm considering art - probably with a concentration in digital media. I feel like I need a creative outlet. It just sucks that I'm changing my major in my fourth year of college.
As far as my laziness in every aspect other than school, it's just unacceptable. The passion is there, I'm just wasting it.
I also realize that I've closed myself off socially, and it's totally unhealthy. I need to meet new people, have new experiences, take in new ideas. Not that I don't love the friends I have, I do, but when was the last time I hung out with them, seriously?
Anyway, if you actually read that, thank you.