Can't go to FIT..fuck drawing and portfolios...I guess i have to go to Hunter. Yay for CUNY schools... I was more upset about this earlier. Jon thankfully calmed me down and made me realize its not the end of the world and that im just over analyzing. It's odd how he can calm me down. Hes sick so i went shopping and i'm gonna make him home made ( Read more... )

When you feel like things are going to good they are...I dont understand it...I guess i never will. Fuck Myspace LoL

Birthday days... I always hated my birthday, why celebrate being alive if you wished you were dead? Last year was the first year that i had a good birthday. I hopping this will be the second birthday i enjoy. Tonight going to the city to get crunk and celebrate. It should be good times...it could turn into a disaster who knows. I'm sick and ( Read more... )

Wow! I'm writting in my live journal. Ummm...let me update ( Read more... )

Dear Journal,
i'm offically addicted to drugs...

Today i went to the Westchester. I finally used my gift card for Victoria Secret that Kim got me for my Bday. I bougth panties. they are sooo cute. Stephen bougth a journal, a candle and a book. He reads more than i do, hes writting a novel. Hes becomming totally sensitive? i dunno, cant desibe it. Today was also his first day on the patch ( Read more... )

I dunno ive been thinking a lot and its fuckin me all up. Kim where the hell are you, pick up ur God dam fone! Ne way i was reading a magizine (so un me LoL) and read this article and cryed. Everyone should check out the whole thing, but hes the clip that got me ( Read more... )

Once upon a time there was this pretty girl and oh my did she have an exciting life. drugs, drinkin and punk rawk shows filled the girls day, as well as loads of sex and chinesse food. Then one day she went to college...the place where these activities rule, and the girl decided "Hey i want to have a 3.5 GPA, so im going to study and not do ( Read more... )

Its like 4am and im awake. Awake awake, like not tired at all. I want to sleep, i want to at least lay down and try (Stephen smells so good) but laying down makes me more annoyed that im not sleeping. Whenever i tired to close my eyes books start dancing around in my head. Its like the more i do the more i still have to do. It doubles ( Read more... )

Im going home tomorrow, going home oh going home. Cant wait so excited, need a beak from this Purchase life. Gonna be a girly gurl, not a boy so excited. Not gonna think about classes, not gonna do work oh yea oh yea