goddamnit, i am on the verge of freaking out, i am home alone and really depressed and if i wasn't on the phone with brooke i would be doing something bad to myself. I hate this, i am sooooooo sad all the time, i can't tell what i want anymore, i can't be happy when i am sober i can't be happy alone i can't be happy with someone i can't convince ( Read more... )

well the weekend could have been a lot better, i got to do some new things, but besides that it was pretty gay. I am really depressed right now and i would give anything not to be. I miss james i have not talked to him in forever. I got to talk to Matt though, he called me a couple times. Nice to hear from him. He said (to brooke) he did not know ( Read more... )

welp, today sucked, i thought of one thing to add to my d/j though my daddy totally called me today, i was like HOLY SHIT HE ACCUALLY WANTS TO TALK TO ME. heh he is going to buy me clothing...yayness right? he is just doing it to show off to his girlfriend because he wants to make her marry him. But oh well stuff for me and a little bit of needed ( Read more... )

lyz, you're a little cunt you want to know why because you act like you are my friend and still talk shit about me. because you're a cunt, don't call me a whore, because thats you not me and don't try and lie because if there is anyone in this world who doesn't lie to me, it's jim AND troy FOR GOD SAKES... They also told me about how matt stuck up ( Read more... )

lyz, you're a little cunt you want to know why because you act like you are my friend and still talk shit about me. because you're a cunt, don't call me a whore, because thats you not me and don't try and lie because if there is anyone in this world who doesn't lie to me, it's jim AND troy FOR GOD SAKES... They also told me about how matt stuck up ( Read more... )

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sitting at my computer in the morning right befor school with my baby in my lap. Today is going to be really shitty i had to sit down a minute befor doing my hair because i was too tired to stand and i like got really dizzy and everything went black and i went a laid down for a minute it was really painful, i hope it doesn't happen again. I couldn' ( Read more... )

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Just Ash 0: did you find something to eat, and was it brooke?
Torturedkitten89: both
Torturedkitten89: lmao
Just Ash 0: haha
Just Ash 0: nerd
Torturedkitten89: dork
Just Ash 0: penisbreath
Just Ash 0: i mean
Torturedkitten89: lol
Just Ash 0: VAGINAL BREATH
Torturedkitten89: LMAO
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yesturday was great, i was hanging out with brooke and we went to rite aid to get a few things. Then James and brad came over and we all went to the mall, it was kool i did really good on drr considering. Then James drove me and Brooke home, they had to leave because they had to go eat dinner at brad's. Then out of no where at like 11:00 james and ( Read more... )

I am sitting on my fat ass getting ready to go find my kitten and then go to sleep. I haven't been the happiest today, but i wasn't in a horrible mood. Tommarrow i am going to go to Brian's house and hang out with him untill he has to go to his lake house. Then i am going to go see my baby she is coming to get me, i misses her like crazy i think i ( Read more... )