Tomorrow I sign my lease for MY apartment. The lease has been made out for a year because I wanted to basically sign my life to Chicago for a year. The reason I did this was so I wouldn't get scared and run back home. This was bold lettering stating that there was no more thinking about running back. Today I've realized that I don't even need that ( Read more... )

Its been 2 weeks since I've moved to Chicago ( Read more... )

I had one of those moments last weekend where there was a continuous soundtrack playing through my head. Well at least thats what it seems like when I reflect on it. During one of the down pours around 3am Saturday night we all just decided to get up, take our shoes and socks off and just run/dance/stomp/make puddle angels. I still, to this very ( Read more... )

The closer I get to Chicago the more I start worrying about everything that is here. Now it seems that I am moving August 1st. It kinda of just snuck up on me that there are alot of good things here that I'm going to miss. It almost seems now that the only reason I am leaving is to get the hell away from my job. I'm not though. Jeff and his family ( Read more... )

I've been feeling so restless lately. I can't seem to find anything that will satisfy me and I'm ready to just wipe everything out and start over again ( Read more... )

Why does everything that feels great end so horribly?

I remember thinking as I was driving to work Monday morning that I need to stop being so locked up. I need to start trusting again. I need that friend that I can tell my secrets to. I need to remember that not everyone out there is bad. That there are other people out there other then my aunt ( Read more... )

I refuse to let this happen again.

Never be vulnerable.
Never be comfortable.

I was built for this. 

Proof that i've been feeding into this bullshit, way too long...

Horoscopes (March 12, 2008)
By Cal Garrison
Mar 11, 2008, 09:55

SCORPIO:  Things are crazy as usual. You’re wondering if people have completely lost it. When you’re not wondering about them, you’re questioning your own sanity. This situation is getting more complicated by the minute. It ( Read more... )

This weekends trip to chicago was amazing. Well besides the 9 hour bus ride to and the 12 hour bus ride back. I'm never taking a greyhound again. If I'm ever forced to take the greyhound again...i'll just walk. I'd probably make it there sooner anyway.

That place is absolutely amazing. I'm kind of upset that I've been living now for over 21 years ( Read more... )

Life  these days has become a never ending cycle of questions. Questions that I'm too afraid to answer just yet. There is so much to think about, I just can't even keep a hold on one thought for long enough to make any sense of it ( Read more... )