please don't let me destroy myself.....

[unstable_ender]

today is the day when everything i have ever done and said has come rushing back to me. i have made the biggest mistake of my life and even though i was given mult. chances to make things right i fucked it up each time because i have become something that i am not. i lost myslef to someone who always wakes up upset and full of hate. someting

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[kitchysaturnine]

I can tell you it will be okay. Because it will. And I know that it sucks, and its hard to turn your feelings off. All of these things come in time. It's a process, sometimes a long process. But everything will be okay. It just takes time.

If you need to talk, I'm still in the process and I've practiced the listening part a lot recently due to others who needed an ear.

It'll be okay.

[goodnevil1919]

crissie, you know this wasn't all your fault. you were both at fault for it. actually neither of you were i think. it was an unhealthy relationship and you both deserved better. what she really needs, you can't give. and honestly, thats okay and it isn't okay if you feel its up to you because you know that if she wasnt with her parents shed be so much better off. you guys prolly coulda been happy if not for your dad and her mom. but i really think that if you got back together now, it would be an even bigger mess than it ever was. don't try to say it wasnt because i know. and i know you love her but its just something youve been trying for so long and it never really worked. so at what point do you realize that you need to step back and either try again when conditions have changed, or give up? that i ccant tell you. you gotta do what feels right but from point of view, begging her to come back or thinking that if she does everything will be honkey dorey if she does is simply bad judgement. im not saying this to make you more upset,