You know, I never used to cry


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I hate it when you know you are slipping, that everything is crashing down around you, yet you are powerless to do anything. What makes it worse is having other people notice it, people that just get in the way. I hate seeing everything starting to fall, as if all the starts just starting free falling towards earth, right now, im just holding on, ( Read more... )

My mom is now home from a business trip that was about 2 weeks long. I guess she really noticed how i've changed. I wish I could go back to when I could hid my emotions, and everything from the outside looked just fine and dandy, like that movie Pleasentvill. She has not gone to sleep yet and keeps coming to my door about once an hour. I really ( Read more... )

This week has been fuking horrible, everything is going back to the way it was, and to think i actually thought at the being of this year that everything was going to be okay for a change. I always think that, and then get sucked down even further down this spiral. i usually go to sleep at 3, and get up at 5:30 to work out. I usually could care ( Read more... )

Running out of ways to run ( Read more... )

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man this weekend so far has been crazy, everynight there has been a party LoL. Thursday night Jc took me to a club with rodney, joseph, alex, and jeremy. It was fuking gay, we get there, it was on the beach, and they wanted 20 bucks instead of 10. we put our money togheter and between all 6 of us we had 80, so the guy was like okay come in. it was ( Read more... )

Well I found out she ran back to marcos. I guess I should have known that it was going to happen eventually. I take that back. I did know. I just didn't want to realize it. I dont think I should have gotten so attached to her, but I couldn't help it. She basicly told me online that she can't "do this anymore, us." and that she went back to him. She ( Read more... )

"scars of mind"Wearing my pain on the outside ( Read more... )