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[untitled12___]

Every once in a while I think of life as a timeline. I can see events at each little juncture of life, like filing papers in some metallic drawer. I also seem to focus on death a lot; the end of the timeline? I'm not sure and will never be sure until it happens to me. However, I've been weighing the density of these events as it gets closer to the

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[frupachino]

it only gets worse before it gets better.

im so sorry to hear about your friend, and the friend of your friends.

you write with humble wiseness.

[untitled12___]

it's sometimes up to you when it gets worse, and it's always up to you when it gets better.

[___lix]

Man, I'm so sorry. That's terrible.

The one thing I'm really stuck on is the "It's enough to make me never want to use 'insane' to describe anything wild or cool like I would normally." part you wrote.

When someone uses those words, it brings a chilling memory right to mind as soon as someone says it. For me, I know far more than I should, girls who've been raped. When people joke around about rape, it's really sick. It makes my skin crawl.

It's like - their innocence makes them ignorant to what you're thinking and feeling.

[untitled12___]

and i'm absolutely guilty of saying these things...it's just that, ignorance. it's hard for me to judge now though, just because i know it can go completely unaware. it's good to be aware though.

thank you for condolences and such.

[glycerineclown]

on the concept of life on a timeline... i guess the only thing i can think of to say is that all life has some kind of natural balance, and this seems like an overload on one side right now, but it will change back.

i haven't personally had a young friend or acquaintance die. i can try to think i could imagine it, but it just hasn't happened. and when it does eventually, i... i don't even want to think about how hard it punches everyone in the gut, how it puts lives on hold.

but i guess the most important thing is that these are the kind of things that make us stop and think about how we're leading our lives and what our priorities are, these are the kind of things that have to happen for people to step back and look at how they effect others... there would be no change without it, and i hate to be morbid but it seems that the world shifts only through that.

[killurrocknroll]

i'm kind of in the same boat right now...i'm thinking almost obsessively about mortality and the concept of death and the fear of dying. i don't really know where this has come from. i feel like i'm getting too old too fast, i shouldn't be worrying about that kind of stuff right now.

i'm kind of in the belief that all tragedy is balanced out eventually with good and everything turns out equally. a person either looks more at the good that's happened in the world, or looks more at the bad things that happened and it depends on their point of view.

sorry if that made no sense, haha.