I haven't been here in a while..sorry to whoever cares. But anyway school is fine. I think I'll survive my first year of college. Ok, enough with the bull. I wanna write about how stupid I feel that I still love this stupid asshole. I can say two hundred bad things about him and call him all kinds of names that are unflattering, but I still love ( Read more... )

I keep doing this over and over. I keep coming back to him. I feel weak. I don't feel like me. I see him and it's like I see the beginning of the relationship. A period of happiness and elation that could never happen again with him or so I think. And then I hear his voice at times in my head or in reality and it just annoys the hell out of me how ( Read more... )

My head is hurting.....again. It's a pain on the right side of my head. I don't know why I have headaches like these, but I do. I feel like crawling under some covers and waking up till it goes away. Shit. I just feel like crawling under some covers and sleep for a long while, even after my headache goes away. After my long slumber maybe then I'll ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say. I can't describe the pain I'm feeling right now. We broke up. What a surprise, right? We broke up on such bad terms that right now I never ever want to see or speak to him again. I said something. I said I didn't like his lifestyle. He blew up. I tried saying sorry and telling him how much I loved him and that I thought ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't been writing in here. School, work, friends, boyfriend, it all just takes up a lot of my time. I'm so sleepy every night that I sleep at 11 pm. I used to sleep like at 1 or 2; I can't last that long anymore, especially since I wake up at 6 like every morning ( Read more... )

I haven't written here for a while now, but, you know I'm busy with college and plus, I'm going to work, so I won't have much time for a lot of stuff. Its not like it matters anyway, my boyfriend is acting like an idiot, so until he gets over his little immature temper tantrum, he'll call me. I won't call him. I tried it sunday, but people in his ( Read more... )

My first day was kind of funny. See, I had a class at 10 a.m. but the thing is i caught the bus late and so i got to class late, i felt like a dummy. Later i apologized to the psychology teacher and she wasn't mad, she just smiled and said it was ok plus, she ended class early, which made me happy. My next class was Popular Culture and The Media ( Read more... )

I finally saw Sam yesterday. We first talked on the phone, to see what was going on in each other's lives and then I went to see him at his house. He said he was cleaning; I wanted to see if he really was cleaning (he's lazy, lol, that's my nickname for him, Lazy). I get there, he isn't cleaning, he's just telling his roomates' nephew how to clean ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I last wrote and there have been some things going on that I just haven't had the time or energy to write about. I got back together with Sam, but we have to work out some problems we still have or I still have with him. Another thing is that Anthony just told me he really liked me as in a I-want-you-to-be-my-girlfriend ( Read more... )

I want to start school already. Not that I love school, I just want to get my mind off my ex. I feel that if I get into a new environment, I'll feel better. I have so much free time on my hands that I think about where the relationship went wrong and everything else. Why do I still think of him? I haven't heard from him in weeks, you know as ( Read more... )