Twenty four hours & my stream of consciousness

[unwittingly]

...and I'll be in Portland. I'm so nervous I can puke. I guess it's a good sign that I still feel that way even after two months of absence.

I guess I should provide some sort of practical update on my life, but I can't really focus on anything in particular that has changed.

I work. A lot.

The job itself isn't satisfying in the way that I'm used to

Comments

[nicrosin]

I can relate a little. Because of having been on the ground floor of a new company, I was always challenged and being praised and promoted. But now that things have stabilized in the company those days are over and now it's all about dealing with office politics and passing time. I feel underused and rotting, but don't want to jump ship until I figured out what I want to do with myself (I'm tired of IT).

As for personal life, I finally got rid of that poisonous relationship and stopped being a hermit, but there's nothing going on in this city that I enjoy and nobody I know does anything except clubbing. No crafting groups, nothing. So I end up being a hermit anyway. This city is a great de-motivator. I'm strongly considering moving out west or to a huge city within 2 years.

[unwittingly]

You definitely need to get out of that state. You've lived there all your life, haven't you? I know people say that all cities are the same, but a change in scenery does amazing things for one's energy.

[nicrosin]

Yeah, lived here my whole life; only thing that has kept me sane so far is travelling as much as I can. But yeah, I need out. So today I have started re-training for a different job and am giving myself 2 years to save up and move. Can't bitch if I'm not doing something about it!

[unwittingly]

Such is human existence? :(