*burp*

well amanda is here behind me singing this love and telling me she's going to blip me up side my head

tonight she and i are going to the mall and going to have a grand ol' time ;)

mm one more day of school then we'll have off for monday and tuesday, yeahya more days with amanda;)

<3

I wish I could ask you every question that was digging at my brain. I wish I could tell you exactly how I really feel and exactly what I really want.

It's amazing how people,even though heart broken, can manage day by day and pretend everything is okay. That's why I respect you so much. I'm making you do the inevitable, for this I am truely sorry ( Read more... )

hmm well I hope everyone made it out of the hurricane unharmed. next stop..Ivan ( Read more... )

okay i deleted that last entry..

adam i love you.

okay i shaved my legs...you can't even imagine how that went...it went better than the peeling of my back...i decided to peel my skin off and i didn't realize i got burnt so deep on my back that when i peeled off the skin i still had burn spots so that hurt and it was dry and cracking..so i put aloe and now it burns more than ever ( Read more... )

well for people who don't already know..amanda and i got really bad sunburned and i of course got burnt worse..well today i went to school and i couldn't feel my feet so i walked to my mom's room and she and i checked my legs and they were purple with millions of blistors on them and they were swollen to were you see no knee or any other bone..so i ( Read more... )

I'm in a weird mood right now. I want to be loved and I don't mean I love you Alison I mean really loved where I'll have someone to fall back on if I get down in the dumps, I mean someone who will always listen when I need to pour my heart and soul out, I mean someone who will hold me and comfort me. While I want these things I also realize and ( Read more... )

I'm so confused on what to think or feel anymore.

what I do know is I miss you.

I want to be my old self again.

I want to be truely happy for once in the past 3 months.

but what I really want is for you to be happy even if that means giving up everything I have and stand for to do it.

I can only take so much, these tears are turning me to rust.

I am the unfixable, just throw me out with the trash.

I'm giving up..so goodluck

I'm not alright, I'm not alright, I'm not alright

and I never will be.

It's funny how much I miss you but am too stubborn to patch things up.

I lost you...and I lost me.