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[enders_shadow]

Wholy crap is this essay annoying....

I mean, it *needs* to be good, and it's getting there, but egads, I agree with Zizek:

I hate writing. I so intensely hate writing - I cannot tell you how much. The moment I am at the end of one project I have the idea that I didn’t really succeed in telling what I wanted to tell, that I need a new project -

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[lovefromgirl]

When I can't stomach an essay, I slog through and do a bog-standard job, no more, no less. It doesn't need to be fancy. It just needs to get the job done.

[enders_shadow]

I worry that all my various drafts fail to get the job done.

It usually helps to have outside eyes read it, and hopefully have them say: "yeah, makes sense"
Or at least when they say "that shit makes no sense" I can ask "why" and hopefully they can point to the problem(s)....

[tisiphone]

So find someone to read it...

[lovefromgirl]

Do you have acquaintances in your classes who might be willing to help out? You could form a proofing circle.

I fully understand if you don't, and I was in that boat, but I had got to know my professors fairly well, and felt a lot more comfortable asking them for clarification if I didn't know which way to take an essay. I also went to a smallish community college where my professors had the time to help their students.

...man, do I feel lucky.

[tisiphone]

Just bloody write it. Don't erase a word, don't worry that it's stupid, just keep chugging along. You'll get there.

[enders_shadow]

It's a process of revising and editing an essay that was already handed in--this is got to be a pretty well polished essay--and so I keep fretting that the damage I do to the already handed in essay, plus the crap* I'm adding to it will make it garbage.

*I feel it's crap, I'm unsure if it is....

Bah! Oh how I despise certain uncertainty...

[tisiphone]

Do you have specific feedback on how to revise it? Do you need a reader? Or another reader?

[enders_shadow]

At this point I feel like anyone would do; then again, I gave up and cracked a beer with dinner an hour ago....

Maybe my eyes are fresh enough at this point.

[everywastedkiss]

Bahahaha. This line actually sums up my life, also:

"But my whole economy of writing is in fact based on an obsessional ritual to avoid the actual act of writing."

Once I get into it, I'm fine but starting the writing process? Sucks.

[thesaturnreturn]

Today, I didn't turn in my essay. I turned in a pathetic request for an extension, that started out with the Zizek quotation you posted. Hopefully my professor has a sense of humor.

Thank you.