DOCTOR TODAY. I'm so scared man , wish me luck@*$)(@*$)#(. Last night, I had a relatively interesting conversation then my words well they ddin't understand them to well ohw ell. I"m hoping to come home afterwards and sleeeeeeep until 4, b/c i said i'd be late so ya! My grandparents come in tomorrow, so not cool :T. That means I get not my room. ( Read more... )

It didn't go in out ear and out the other. It was very useful, well at least got me thinking about a lot. I've done well actually as for thinking about it. I mean for once I'm going by how I actually feel.. and well that is how i feel. I feel like there wont be another chance, but I know there will be. I'm 17 1/2, who says I'll get married at the ( Read more... )

I hate being ignored. I think I did that to sally all the time, but I hate it. I can't stand it. It's like i'm being avoided.. then I pour my heart out and get 1 little response, and nothing about what I said. Anyway, I'm so freaking tired I cant see. I have to do my english speech today I figure i can just read it and get it over with. I have so ( Read more... )

So today sucked. I had sign out at work, which reminded me of when melissa came down , because I had SOOO much time on my hands for like an hour. I just sat there and thought. Tomorrow I have to work until 8ish :-\ and thursday I do too. I also have to stay after wednesday and Thursday. Saturday I go for my group interview to work this summer. I ( Read more... )

I hate not having her. She was my world. I didn't show as much as I could, but I did show it. I was trying to fix things, I really was. I'm tryin my best to get over it. To let her be happy, and I want them to be happy but, no one has any idea of how destroyed I am. Anyway, I've been talking to James lately and he's great, his gf just yelled at him ( Read more... )

I've actaulyl been meaning to write, but haven't had the chance. SO many emotions. ANyway, I talked to christine she has these great lyrics that I want to use, but i have to get some from her. I was in the hospital, for reasons no one needs to know. It sucked big time. I am no longer in a relationship, which sucks. but I guess i'll get over it. I ( Read more... )

So again, no school. Wow what fun. I probably have to work in the next hour, so I'm getting ready in case Brian comes to pick me up. The snow is very pretty though. I'm debating on asking this girl casey if we both want to walk until we meet and she can com eover, but then i felt it'd be awkward. I wrote her a little encouraging note gave it to her ( Read more... )

It is SO wierd seeing my friend irl having a journal.. because now i'm scared of what i write. there is only 2 people at schoool that know personal stuff.. ohw ell anyway. It snowed today. Nos chool and we probably wont have school tomorrow but i"m sure i"ll hav eto work :-\ that sucks oh well. I hope I graduate stuff is kind of hard and melissa ( Read more... )

today sucks. American idol comes on, i'm too lazy to watch it. I have a paper due thursday it's tuesday.. fail. I get my license thursday thank god. I tried to recruit a parent to make parent phone calles and stuff and chris stol eht parent i was mad... so yea. psychology tomorrow kelly is all i look fwd too uhhhhhhh computer class FUCK i didn't ( Read more... )

wow long tiem no update lol. Anyway my grades= suck. I got 2 A's 2 B's 3 C's and a D. Yea yea sucks. Works okay I guess. Katie and I have kind of gotten distant oh well. I hope kelly's okay. I took my psychology test yesterday it went well actually, I thought I did pretty good. I have a Hamlet Test tomorrow. I also have to do an E-commerce article ( Read more... )