A beautiful mess, part one of two.
Title: A beautiful mess, part one of two.
Series: Scars of the past, complicate the future.
Pairing: Sharon and Andy
Word count:1.082
Rating:T
Summary: Sharon is upset after a conversation with Rusty. Andy is there for comfort.
AN: Thank you all for following my story and giving me all those lovely reviews, I can't say how much it means to me. I enjoy writing now so much more.
Credit for the screencaps I used for the banner goes to akachankami found them on mc_screencaps
Previous parts to this story can be found in my (master fic list)
A beautiful mess, part one of two.
Rusty had taken the new about his father bad. Yelling at her, accusing her of wanting to get rid of him. Such a contrast with the Rusty she'd seen just recently. Finally opening up to her a bit. So this outburst, hit her twice as hard. She hadn't been able to keep her feelings confined within the walls of her little brick wall. Maybe that's what had caused Provenza's reaction.
After Provenza's interference, he had apologized. He hadn't meant to hurt her. She knew that. Still she was losing the battle with the tears, that were welling in her eyes. She escaped, seeking refuge in her office.
Andy had seen her rushing into her office. Something was off. Shortly after, he had seen Provenza with Rusty. The boy walked with his head bowed. Something had happened.
This was work and they were trying to keep things separated, but he couldn't just keep sitting there, while he knew she was in her office, hurt.
So he decided to go in now. Provenza, occupied with Rusty. And with the others out, he was the only one on the floor. No one would notice.
He didn't knock. She was composing herself fast. But in those few seconds, he saw just how upset she was. Although her back was turned towards him, he could see her hand covering her nose and mouth to stifle her crying. Her other arm tightly wrapped around her waist.
She wiped away her tears, as she had heard someone enter. No matter what brave face she put up, her eyes were red rimmed. Her usual bright eyes, so vulnerable, trails of tears still on her cheeks.
"You okay?"
"Hm-mm."
She had been alone too long. Always feeling like she had to keep up a brave face. Did she really believe, he wouldn't notice how hurt she was? That he wouldn't be able to feel her pain? One look in her eyes and his heart had ached.
He made a few steps towards her. Took a moment to look deep into her eyes, while he touched the side of her face.
"Come here."
He pulled her in his arms, his hand on the back of her head.
She was actually shaking in his arms. Stroking her hair, he breathed out deep, feeling her wet tears on his chest.
"What happened?"
"Rusty believed I would just want to get rid of him."
"He's just lashing out at you, because he's insecure."
"I know…he apologized."
"Hurts anyway, huh?"
He wrapped his arms tighter around her, pressing a kiss on the side of her head. Rubbing her back. Just crying your heart out, was sometimes the perfect remedy. Especially for someone like Sharon, who was used to bottling up all the pain and sorrow that came into her life.
She would just have to learn, that he would always be there for her. He'd share everything with her, the joy and the grieve. She wasn't into this alone anymore. If it were up to him, she would never be alone, anymore.
His warmth, his heartbeat, so soothing. It just felt right. The door wasn't locked. Anyone could come in at any moment, and still she didn't care. Right now he was Andy and she so desperately needed him.
She didn't care about Richard and this file he put together. All that mattered was, that this man, was actually here for her. He would listen to her, comfort her. He'd give her time and space, when she needed it. Would just know, when it was love and attention she'd need.
It was like he had this special radar, that detected her feelings, despite of the brick wall, that she had managed to build around herself.
Rusty felt awful, Sharon had been really hurt. He had never seen her eyes broken like that. The damage had already been done, once he'd seen the hurt in her eyes. Why did he keep doing this to her?
She had been nothing but good to him. She took him into her home, paid for his needs, his schooling. If he was honest to himself, his own mother, had never provided for him,not the way Sharon did. He really had to apologize to her.
As he approached her office, he could see through a crack in the blinds, that Lieutenant Flynn was in her office. He was holding her in his arms. It looked like he was comforting her. He had told her he hadn't meant it. He already had been afraid, that he had hurt her more, than she had led on. He'd better not interrupt now.
Andy gave her one more soft kiss. Distancing himself a bit, bowing his head, so he could look at her face. He studied her for a moment and then decided that she was okay. He smiled at her, resulting in a smile from her.
"That's better."
She wiped away some tears that hadn't dried up yet.
"I must look like a mess."
He grinned at her.
"A beautiful mess."
His eyes, caught the file on her desk with his name on it.
"Were you longing for the old days?"
He met her confused look, pointing at the file on her desk.
"That's my IA file on your desk, isn't it?"
She looked at the file, suddenly more serious.
"Can't recall I did something lately to get IA on my back. My new Captain kind of whipped me into shape."
She smiled. "You're not in any trouble."
"Good, I'd hate to get suspended now."
He had a big smile on his face. Then closed the distance between them, so he could kiss her. She smiled, while their lips touched. He was in a bold mood, but that did the trick to lift her spirits right now. As she didn't back away, he deepened their kiss. It had been too long, since he had been able to be this intimate with her. To actually feel her heartbeat against his chest.
He put his hands on her wrists, to keep her as close as he possibly could. He needed this to last longer. Especially, as he had no idea when he could be this close to her again. He hadn't expected her to grimace though.
Series: Scars of the past, complicate the future.
Pairing: Sharon and Andy
Word count:1.082
Rating:T
Summary: Sharon is upset after a conversation with Rusty. Andy is there for comfort.
AN: Thank you all for following my story and giving me all those lovely reviews, I can't say how much it means to me. I enjoy writing now so much more.
Credit for the screencaps I used for the banner goes to akachankami found them on mc_screencaps
Previous parts to this story can be found in my (master fic list)
A beautiful mess, part one of two.
Rusty had taken the new about his father bad. Yelling at her, accusing her of wanting to get rid of him. Such a contrast with the Rusty she'd seen just recently. Finally opening up to her a bit. So this outburst, hit her twice as hard. She hadn't been able to keep her feelings confined within the walls of her little brick wall. Maybe that's what had caused Provenza's reaction.
After Provenza's interference, he had apologized. He hadn't meant to hurt her. She knew that. Still she was losing the battle with the tears, that were welling in her eyes. She escaped, seeking refuge in her office.
Andy had seen her rushing into her office. Something was off. Shortly after, he had seen Provenza with Rusty. The boy walked with his head bowed. Something had happened.
This was work and they were trying to keep things separated, but he couldn't just keep sitting there, while he knew she was in her office, hurt.
So he decided to go in now. Provenza, occupied with Rusty. And with the others out, he was the only one on the floor. No one would notice.
He didn't knock. She was composing herself fast. But in those few seconds, he saw just how upset she was. Although her back was turned towards him, he could see her hand covering her nose and mouth to stifle her crying. Her other arm tightly wrapped around her waist.
She wiped away her tears, as she had heard someone enter. No matter what brave face she put up, her eyes were red rimmed. Her usual bright eyes, so vulnerable, trails of tears still on her cheeks.
"You okay?"
"Hm-mm."
She had been alone too long. Always feeling like she had to keep up a brave face. Did she really believe, he wouldn't notice how hurt she was? That he wouldn't be able to feel her pain? One look in her eyes and his heart had ached.
He made a few steps towards her. Took a moment to look deep into her eyes, while he touched the side of her face.
"Come here."
He pulled her in his arms, his hand on the back of her head.
She was actually shaking in his arms. Stroking her hair, he breathed out deep, feeling her wet tears on his chest.
"What happened?"
"Rusty believed I would just want to get rid of him."
"He's just lashing out at you, because he's insecure."
"I know…he apologized."
"Hurts anyway, huh?"
He wrapped his arms tighter around her, pressing a kiss on the side of her head. Rubbing her back. Just crying your heart out, was sometimes the perfect remedy. Especially for someone like Sharon, who was used to bottling up all the pain and sorrow that came into her life.
She would just have to learn, that he would always be there for her. He'd share everything with her, the joy and the grieve. She wasn't into this alone anymore. If it were up to him, she would never be alone, anymore.
His warmth, his heartbeat, so soothing. It just felt right. The door wasn't locked. Anyone could come in at any moment, and still she didn't care. Right now he was Andy and she so desperately needed him.
She didn't care about Richard and this file he put together. All that mattered was, that this man, was actually here for her. He would listen to her, comfort her. He'd give her time and space, when she needed it. Would just know, when it was love and attention she'd need.
It was like he had this special radar, that detected her feelings, despite of the brick wall, that she had managed to build around herself.
Rusty felt awful, Sharon had been really hurt. He had never seen her eyes broken like that. The damage had already been done, once he'd seen the hurt in her eyes. Why did he keep doing this to her?
She had been nothing but good to him. She took him into her home, paid for his needs, his schooling. If he was honest to himself, his own mother, had never provided for him,not the way Sharon did. He really had to apologize to her.
As he approached her office, he could see through a crack in the blinds, that Lieutenant Flynn was in her office. He was holding her in his arms. It looked like he was comforting her. He had told her he hadn't meant it. He already had been afraid, that he had hurt her more, than she had led on. He'd better not interrupt now.
Andy gave her one more soft kiss. Distancing himself a bit, bowing his head, so he could look at her face. He studied her for a moment and then decided that she was okay. He smiled at her, resulting in a smile from her.
"That's better."
She wiped away some tears that hadn't dried up yet.
"I must look like a mess."
He grinned at her.
"A beautiful mess."
His eyes, caught the file on her desk with his name on it.
"Were you longing for the old days?"
He met her confused look, pointing at the file on her desk.
"That's my IA file on your desk, isn't it?"
She looked at the file, suddenly more serious.
"Can't recall I did something lately to get IA on my back. My new Captain kind of whipped me into shape."
She smiled. "You're not in any trouble."
"Good, I'd hate to get suspended now."
He had a big smile on his face. Then closed the distance between them, so he could kiss her. She smiled, while their lips touched. He was in a bold mood, but that did the trick to lift her spirits right now. As she didn't back away, he deepened their kiss. It had been too long, since he had been able to be this intimate with her. To actually feel her heartbeat against his chest.
He put his hands on her wrists, to keep her as close as he possibly could. He needed this to last longer. Especially, as he had no idea when he could be this close to her again. He hadn't expected her to grimace though.