My lil poppet no more
Reeds growth has amped when he started solids, like Adrian.
I already feel sorry for reed,for all the assumptions that he is already older now and yet he cant do stuff. You want them to stay lil forever and to shelter them and hope the world treats them as precious as i do. Its hard knowing that wont be the case.
Man i love him, and the time he was lil poppet in my arms was jst too short. I realised we do look funny in the mirror. Im all angles and i am not huge. And he looks massive compared to me. No wonder ppl look. But he is still my baby to me. 😭😭 i wish they could see & know that.
Getting one of those hormonal crying mom moments but it feels harder when they grow faster. Brain cnt catch up!
Adrian tries to make me feel better ‘ take heart that I was always my mums little boy even when i was 6foot tall!!’. Aww. Its so weird because he has my face (& the only growth chart he doesnt follow is head as my big head dna has combined with Adrians huge dna and given him a massive head. It was always a lil big but now its really big but he has the most beauitiful smiley face so its more to love). Im always going to be sitting in the corner of my lil boys Ring cheering him on, supporting him. Because he is smaller and more innocent than anyone would know. He is honestly a sweetie pie, an angel. No other word for him. A lovely old lady put it in a lovely way the other day, unlike others. She said “what a bonnie lovely boy!”. You wouldnt know it either looking at him now but weight wise Adrian seemed be as chubby as my lil dude. I feel like im feeding him all day and maybe overfeeding him with the comments people make. But he is so happy. So i must be doing something right and adrians far from obese now (tho i have noticed its in his personality, down at omas he can totally overfeed daily but now hes an adult and he gets busy he knows that its not an every day thing and leaned out when he got to 6’4 at an early age!). I highly also think my kids getreflux because they take on more milk and grow at a rapid rate more than the avg kid. They need it but with their immature tummies it pnly adds to it. Im too tiny to hold his dna long enough. Im not actually tiny, but in comparison i am! I know reedhasan amazing personality already, but also focusing on his happiness and what worked for us made a angel baby so happy. No suffering. I have no regrets this time around. Reed has had a charmed life and the first month of pain and suffering he doesnt remember. It didnt become part of him at all. I am so proud of me for listening to ME this time around and for knowing it all and not failing him at all. My sweet growing angel child 😇
I know its good kids grow. Every day with them is precious and seeing them. To live we must grow. But i wish there was an alternative reality i could go and snuggle him while he was lil always. Even if it means i feel i dont have any time to myself, like to just shave my legs or look in the mirror now and then or have more than a few minute shower.
He gives me the sweetest open mouth kisses these days, he loves to play peekabo, lifting and covering his face for ages. He looks up to his big brother and thinks he is always soo soo funny no matter what. This family was waiting for this lil soul, long before we knewwhat was missing.