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[urbanbohemia]

I lied when I said things couldn't get any worse.

I got a call from a friend this morning telling me that a friend of ours from college had died.

Thinking about life recently and I have been to more memorials, funerals, wakes, celebrations of life, etc. than birthdays, anniversaries or weddings.

It's probably a good thing that I'm seeing a

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[sinandsilence]

At least you got a call...I had to find out from facebook and no one will give me any info on what happened. Life is fucking depressing lately.

Melissa Dillingham

[urbanbohemia]

Ugh. I was going to go online earlier that day before I got the phone call. I've gotten bits and pieces of information but nothing really concrete. Everything is still attempting to sink in...not that I (or anyone else) wants it to...

[sinandsilence]

Yeah, I can't even begin to believe it. Of all people. But I've lost so many friends to suicide and taken far too many psych classes that its becoming a bit numbing. But him?? I just can't believe it.

[bu_yahbazzle]

I'm sorry I was the one to tell you... life sucks. It's been almost two months and I cannot for the life of me wrap my mind around it. I was talking to someone the other day, and they said "...but I didn't imagine he was suicidal" and I said "I don't think he was", and it's just weird knowing that no one will ever know. I'll always maintain he wasn't suicidal, but it's hard to do when you stare at the ceiling night after night and wonder. I keep thinking I found closure, and then I'll just fucking break down for a few hours. Everything I do or see reminds me of him, and everywhere I turn on campus I can't help but think "odd, haven't seen Jay all day". I just don't believe it.