Um, okay
Haven't really posted in awhile. That's innate of not really having enough time to do all of the things I committed myself to.
Things that included:
1) ISA cult work
2) More hours and responsibilities at gourmet to go
3) A stage combat show
4) A 'REAL' acting play
5) A new love? girlfriend? commitment?(the right word is not here yet)
6) A new apartment and an impending move.
As of today, I have bailed on 1 and 3, haven't done enough for 3 and 6, and have tried to do my best for 2 and 5. I think that I'm doing very well, at least by me. Could I be doing better? Hmm...I guess. But that's a matter of both perspective and conjecture.
I was hoping to learn a great deal from working from within isa.
1) I am an attention whore, and negative attention will serve when positive is in short supply.
2) I have RIDICULOUSLY high standards, and I would rather keep them than accomplish more.
3) I am far too independent to be told what to do by fools and idiots.
4) Cults and religions are both the same. A framework of ideas generally used to create a result - results create people, but slavish loyalty creates evangelists and acolytes.
5) There are still strong, supportive, worthwhile people out there, I just haven't determined what the best way to sift and test is quite yet.
6) Communication is one of the least understood and most poorly utilized of the everyday tools at humanity's disposal. It therefore makes sense for me to continue down my path of mastery, because I need to learn, if other people don't.
I've got several books that I'm reading right now.
How to win friends and influence people.
Different loving.
The Teenager's liberation handbook.
Communication
D&S
Education
Interesting stuff, but no strong conclusions, besides the fact that I need to know more about all of these things. Perhaps going back and doing some more NLP research.
But above all, my charisma is at a low ebb. Substantial relationships often create a mindset wherein I give even less of a fuck about sifting through the fleshy debris to find the nuggets that I'm looking for.
So, back to the grind.