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[urstrulyjna]

I feel like this has been such an amazing summer, but definately the most difficult for me. I go through my phases of just being an emotional wreck, i know it's due to the fact that i never have a continuous full outlet of actually letting all these emotions release. I hate that i have difficulty being open, because it just accumulates and comes

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[sweetsblonde4]

i dont think you should try and completely disconnect him from your life because it may be the straw that broke the camels back, so to speak. you wouldnt want to lose him from your life completely just because youre going through an emotional time in your life.

i think you could back up and take some time apart if you need it, but still accept his phone calls and maybe chat for a little bit and then say you need to go for whatever reason. at least he'll know you're not completing blowing him off, you just need so "me" time to adjust yourself and feel okay. if he cant understand that you need your alone time then that is his problem, not yours. also let him be aware that sometimes it will take a little prying to get you to open up, but it will happen. boys are stupid, they dont always catch on as easily as we'd like them to. (and if he's anything like me he is horrible and "reading signals" and will just not pick up on them haha).

i love you friend. want to go to the sd zoo on sunday?

[urstrulyjna]

man i feel like we've talked about this so maaaanny times. i'm over it! haha. it's just frustrating to me, because I get so frustrated over it. it just goes with the whole SF thing, he doesn't understand why i'm sad about it and gets mad when i'm sad when i should be excited!

it's hard to keep space from him because when i talked to him he did say "it's not like we're even friends anymore". AAAANNNNNDDD he said "oh and i'm probably going to be on a date all day tomorrow, i thought i'd tell you now rather than after the date happens because then we wouldn't be friends"

!!!!! and he said that because i didnt tell him until after the whole thing happened hahah i dont even want to say it

i know he does get jealous when we hang out or i hang out with other people, and i feel guilty for doing it. but i guess now he has other people to hang out with so i shouldnt feel bad, but i still feel some sort of animosity towards it.

[urstrulyjna]

oh yaaaa i want to go to the zoo so bad! but i have to work sunday. poo. stupid sale

[sweetsblonde4]

sales are for wussies. lets go see the tigers!

[ohhsnapsss]

i agree with renee and also know how you feel. i wanted to separate myself from johnny but i get lonely so i can't completely cut him out. he's still the person i talk to the most and i get upset when he goes out and meets new people (girls) but that's stupid bc that's what i wanted for myself so i shouldn't get upset.

it is not bad that you're not an open person, but you shouldn't bottle up everything either. if he isn't around for you to talk to, or doesn't understand how to get it out of you, you should still talk to like, say, renee, or just anyone because it's always a huge relief.

but what am i saying i am not so emotionally stable myself.. i am not letting myself let go of someone i know is a douchebag when i have a really awesome boy whose heart i tore up.

[ohhsnapsss]

and happy birthday: http://justjared.buzznet.com/2008/07/16/justin-timberlake-jessica-simpson-espy/

sexxxxxy

[sweetsblonde4]

Re: sexxxxxy

[urstrulyjna]

THIS IS MAKING ME HAPPY BEFORE WORK! EEEEK