im in a fuck it mood...i dont know why this started ... i was fine now this... when i get this way its the same fuckin cycle... i cant help but cry... then i get mad and yelll.... then i feel bad for whoever in yelled at... next im mad again.... and back at the point where im trying not to cry..
my mom was the victom again tonite... i think she ( Read more... )

[rand0m..]
i've blogged this already yes, but i'll enlighten u once again..
she wont want u... she doesnt...im sorry i need to be so forward but thats all i can be now...i wouldnt be suprised at all if u didnt know i was talking about u..
forget what they say.. please.. because i am [promising] you its not true..
they just have these expectations of us ( Read more... )

Nothing has changed... and some things wont..
the motherly rele wants me to become close with jodi... get to know each other...so i asked her.. mom.. how will we ever  become close with me seeing her once maybe every 2 months.... she said nothing... for once i was right and she knew it... so now im back on weekly...
i dont think she likes me much... ( Read more... )

No seAtbelt Song->brAnd new

So, it's sad this doesn't suit you now,
and me fresh out of rope.
Please, ignore the lisp, I never meant to sound like this.
So take me and break me,
And make me strong like you.
I'll be forever grateful to this and you.

It's only you, beautiful,
Or I don't want anyone.
If I can choose, it's only you.

Fix me to a chain around ( Read more... )

Well tonite has been interesting... i had a date for semi and dont anymore..
he said nvm...
i got this off erins blog *blushes*.. i found it very intersting and funny
Welcome to the Psychiatric Hotline.
If you are obsessive-compulsive, please press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2.
If you have multiple personalities, ( Read more... )

i love the word contemplate..[ing][ive]..
i rele dont know why....maybe because its something i am constantly doing..
im listening to pink floyd right now... its very good... i've been listening to a lot of clasic rock lately..im learning to.. er apreciate it...

I am beginging to wonder if ppl know... everyones acting strange around me..all the ppl ( Read more... )

Good morning...
this weekend is going to suck... i know it..
it really confuses me...and i can never read it....so im giving up on it
i didnt go to jeffs show last night... and i feel rele bad...i doubt he will read this.. but jeff is one of my best.. most favorite friends..i luv him..i feel like im losing closeness with ppl... but hes on person i ( Read more... )

This week has totaly sucked thus far....
its been filled with detentions, threats of suspension, and frequent trips to the principles office... i rele am confused.. im not the type to get in trouble, and i dont think i didnt anything either... im an.. "east target".. hmm..

boredom is killing me... i wish i could spell

01. Favorite color: brown
02. ( Read more... )

today sucked... im sorry but it rele did...
im suprised i made it through the day without crying..
fukin new principle called me out of class and said if i dont get a note by tomorrow im suspended..
my english teacher hates me and i have detention all week... or until my binder is to her satisfaction..

on a lighter note... im generally feeling better ( Read more... )

no i dont... rele i dont... im wearing pj bottoms :)..that was just a subject choice and i thought maybe it would be comical to the few or none of u that read this ( Read more... )