Yeah, it's all yoga. I'm hoping that the cognition-levels thing comes back into its fullness, along with the asana, because that sounds kind of scary and annoying. Glad to see you posting and to know what's going on with you.
Oh, I HATE that cognitive stuff! Couple of years ago during a really big flare, I got a VM from the local day spa reminding me that I had a massage the next day.
I was surprised and thrilled. I knew my friends were great, but to surprise me with a massage - when I realized I really, REALLY needed one - was an amazing present.
I called the day spa back and asked them who made the appointment.
The receptionist paused. "Uh," she said, "You did. Last Friday when you came by."
WHOOPS! That one was funny and great, but yeah, kind of scary too...
Am hoping that this is all part of a stage where your brain is rewiring itself...sort of like an "Excuse Our Mess" sign...and that once it's finished adjusting you won't find yourself quite so dazed and confused.
When I've had the cog-stuff before, it was ... not less scary, but easier to bust out of the fear part. I think it seems worse this time, partly because it's not as easy to turn it into a game as "guess the common everyday word that RD just forgot by listening to her describe it" -- it's round, it's red, it grows in the garden, it's a ... tomato! "Guess why I'm standing around with a quizzical look on my face, glancing about all hither and yon" just lacks some of the Fun Factor. :/
With a little thought, I also remembered that last time, Hel and Tamara were getting freaked out, and so I played it cool to lessen their fear (which in turn lessened my own), whereas this time I've got to jump straight into lessening my own.
Or not -- if it's M.S.-related it will do what it does, irrespective of whether I'm cool with it or scared of it, so just waiting a bit to see what comes next is the step I'm on right now. I don't particularly enjoy practicing my patience, so the wait-and-see phase can be a bitch sometimes! ;->
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I was surprised and thrilled. I knew my friends were great, but to surprise me with a massage - when I realized I really, REALLY needed one - was an amazing present.
I called the day spa back and asked them who made the appointment.
The receptionist paused.
"Uh," she said, "You did. Last Friday when you came by."
WHOOPS! That one was funny and great, but yeah, kind of scary too...
Am hoping that this is all part of a stage where your brain is rewiring itself...sort of like an "Excuse Our Mess" sign...and that once it's finished adjusting you won't find yourself quite so dazed and confused.
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With a little thought, I also remembered that last time, Hel and Tamara were getting freaked out, and so I played it cool to lessen their fear (which in turn lessened my own), whereas this time I've got to jump straight into lessening my own.
Or not -- if it's M.S.-related it will do what it does, irrespective of whether I'm cool with it or scared of it, so just waiting a bit to see what comes next is the step I'm on right now. I don't particularly enjoy practicing my patience, so the wait-and-see phase can be a bitch sometimes! ;->
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Thinking of you, cheering you on, and sending you lots of light.
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