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[utensils]

things have been pretty exciting recently. extremely busy and full on and i'm absoutely enjoying and appreciating every single day. how the world has opened up and has swallowed me into this vast assortment of opportunities. it won't be long until i have everything sorted out & i will be able to achieve my goals. i've seen more of the coast &

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[andberlin]

there's so much to say, i think there's always so much to say to you. which makes me sad with myself when i look at yr previous entries and my lack of response to them! i have put $4000 of the $5000 my mum gave me a couple of months ago into an ING interest savings account. i want to visit you with the interest - take a thousand bucks and just road trip the coastland and countryside for a couple of weeks, a ladies road trip. i feel incredibly free from my nz baggage - i spoke to him by phone the other month, for the first time in two years, and it was terribly awkward and i was sad and disappointed for him. but afterwards i knew he was no longer a temptation, he was dead and dry to my heart, which makes me sad. but that's just the way it is. i am too happy to worry about boys at the moment! but i want to share those skies and really explore, explore, explore with you. let's see how quickly this interest accumulates - it was always for travel anyway!

[utensils]

aw fiona my dear! i think thats part of what makes writing my letters to you so difficult. i always have so many millions of things to say that i either, run out of time, run out of paper, ink in my pen & that awful poison os procrastination. it breaks my heart. i would more than love to spend a holiday travling about new zealand with you. i've got some great opportunities which may arise which will open up a whole new world to me. its exciting, but i'll see how things pan out in the end

[andberlin]

aw! bless! i miss you too! i miss cuddles! my problem is my laziness - in my heart and head there is so much to say, but my hands cannot be bothered and i am always angry at them! ha! true though...

i know, it does feel like such a short while ago - i am shocked at how time has passed, and that my baby brother is now the age i was when i returned from nz! weird! you know the funny thing was i was a completely different person and he was pretty much the same. it made me sad for him. funny, i was talking to god tonight in my head about how sad i am for him, and all that potential that is hidden there. i still believe it's there.

hey, the longer the wait the more the interest gained. and i am so flippant with plans - i am constantly filled with wanderlust and telling people i will rendezvous with them in all manner of foreign places! but yes, we will see how things pan out. something that is angst free, that's perfect.

[utensils]

there are all these super overwhelming emotions within my body. swirling around my veins, my bones to fill me up & i feel grand. something happened yesterday & perhaps, this morning? i think its been a creeping of a happening. i don't know when, but it did & has & i'm just so fucking ecstatic at the moment. i hope i can contain this feeling for the whole day.

i have things to tell you that i wouldn't otherwise utter to a soul.