life update?

[utopian1701]

So the person I had been madly in love with for a little over 4 1/2 years finally started giving me every single thing I could ever ask for from him. annnnd I decide being with him doesn't feel right any longer. I don't understand how life can be so unfair and confusing .. but it is. A month ago I had wished this feeling would go away (so i tried

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/nick

[anonymous]

I love lamp.

Re: /nick

[utopian1701]

haha nice .. are you just picking random things in the room and saying you love them?

[hella_stoked]

I love desk.
K sorry

[utopian1701]

you're forgiven :P

[nickthenut]

i love carpet.

and i'm not sorry.

[utopian1701]

screw you!

[socalcountryqt]

and a real comment...

I think you are doing the right thing Mindy, what's meant to be is meant to be... and if it is, another opportunity will arise... Go out and live your life hun!

So glad we talked last night, yay!

[utopian1701]

you call THAT a real comment? :) haha jk .. yeah it was nice talking to you also, though playing phone tag was fun ;) 5 more weeks!

[socalcountryqt]

Well, I could have just said... I love chair... :p

[jotgeek]

I'm very glad you are happy, Mindy.. If I can't make you happy, you shouldn't stick around, you should go to who does make you happy, being Tyler is. Just as I shouldnt stick around and sit while someone "drags me through the dirt" as you put it, which your right, I don't want to be dragged through the dirt. It was too painful for you to go to him, come back, go to him, and come back..and I cant handle you coming back to me "too soon" and then going to him again.. I want to be your friend again, someday. With all the lies and being kicked around, its making it harder and harder, because if you truly were my good friend you would of told me the up front truth, oher then lying about it to make me feel better. After all, I would of found out, which only makes things worse..But we both know that now. Now you have your chance to prove to me, yet again, that you want to respect me and tell me the truth, and it looks like you might have

[utopian1701]

you do what is best for you, I told you before to not consider my feelings when you were going thru your thing .. and you didn't. and you came back knowing EXACTLY what you wanted. If you hadn't acted on how you felt at that moment and totaly went through some things maybe you wouldn't have been so sure. So I think putting yourself before me is a very good thing to do right now, just as it was a few months ago. And I'll do the same. It's good to be selfish once in a while .. I'm glad we're taking a lot of space a part and I think it is a good idea for us to be totaly out of our lives for a while until the dust settles (except for camping .. whiiich should be an interesting week lol

[jotgeek]

".. and well .. kinda got me now where didn't it?"

To be truthful, it only made things worse.

Don't fret, I feel much better.

[utopian1701]

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