1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? went to ohio, ran a conference, passed out in the subway, lost my grip on sanity and reality ( Read more... )

Its really hard to beleive that i spent 24 years in this place. all these people going to bed early, lights going out by midnight. cars, malls and stores. nothing to do but eat, sleep, work, and shop. mabe work should come first in that list since it is needed for all of the other things to be possible. i want to scream in these peoples faces, ( Read more... )

last night was good...tomarrow will be better. damb that girl. you know who you are inevitably placing so many people off limits. it was the right thing to do even if you didnt know you were doing it to me. in a way i resent you for the little voice of reason that you put in my head. i will have to remember to thank you for it sometime, i ( Read more... )

HOLY SHIT! IT WONT EVEN FIT HERE?

did you ever feel like there was so little sanity left that if you tried to hold onto it, it would crumble and break in your hand. so you end up just trying to stay near it and not disturb it for fear that it would run like hell to get away from you and your fumbling but lonely hands.

the best thing in life is that conversation that both people refuse to let end because they are enjoying each others company so much.

i am missing alot of people right now. and wish they were here for me to talk to. having intense feelings that i would describe as a fear of being alone?

she remembered us by name...sitting there with her hands bandaged and too many people missing. i was remembered by name...and mark by the bra he put on like a hat that inebriated night so fucking long ago. i keep seeing him with one crutch, leaning in the hallway by the kitchen hair messy, kaki pants and a t-shirt at about 3:30 in the afternoon ( Read more... )

i hesitate over the key board because i dont know how to say it right. i want it to be poetic and to do justice to the way that i am feeling but i never was a writter. when i was in college i had a family. my freinds and i were closer than i could explain. we all went through alot of shit together and when it came down to it we all went to him ( Read more... )

never thought that too much sleep would make me sad. but it does, i dont know where my head is right now, or my heart. i spend most of my waking hours thinking about what i feel and never coming to any meaningful conclusions besides "postponing a decision will make life less difficult". it seems that avoidance makes it easier than dealing with ( Read more... )