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Nov 20, 2005 00:14

What happened to that time when I felt like I actually had real friends? Not just superficial people I see on occasion, but people I could talk to? I think on this often, especially when out with anybody, and I worry that its not them that became superficial. I worry that I have lived so long behind so many different masks that the mask I wear is ( Read more... )

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rob_lurch November 20 2005, 18:13:36 UTC

i am always here for you bud

v101514 November 24 2005, 09:26:41 UTC

I know, like I said, I fear its not necessarily others that are distant, so much as myself.

talk to us man artcat81 November 21 2005, 14:30:04 UTC

dude come back and join us again, we miss you!

Oh vid ( you ahve not met her, the other one who likes shiny stuff) is throwing a 14 hour firefly marathon /holiday party details here!

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also, try not wearing the mask, your friends should accept you for you, i think you will find it more gratifying

Re: talk to us man v101514 November 24 2005, 09:25:31 UTC

I need to come around more often. I really do.

Re: talk to us man artcat81 December 5 2005, 04:32:54 UTC

artcat here being lazy again, man you missed it! last night we played a random campaign and we managed to kill off all but one character! soo totally rocked!

heavyp November 21 2005, 23:20:26 UTC

I'd like to think that you don't wear a mask around me. If you were, then considering our conversations to/from Dallas, that was a goddamn weird mask, man. :^) At any rate, we seem to think alike on several levels, and though we don't hang out as often as we should, we're good to talk anytime.

v101514 November 24 2005, 09:37:55 UTC

Well, when I say a mask, I dont mean to imply I'm presenting somthing completely unlike myself, so much as hiding different parts of my underlying self from different people. Anything that is presented, is still part of myself, but not necessarily the whole of myself. I sometimes drop it quite a bit when I'm having too much fun to notice, but even then it quickly comes back into focus in my minds eye. Its almost always there as sort of a nagging thing that feels like acid in my chest. I know its normal not to let everyone see all that you are, all of the time, but I feel I've somehow done this to extremes.

Sorry night_mane November 23 2005, 19:05:40 UTC

It sucks, but I really don't have time to be the friend I wish to.

Re: Sorry v101514 November 24 2005, 09:42:04 UTC

Don't worry, I fully understand. I didn't mean this to sound like I was blaming anyone but myself. I'm the one who stopped putting forth any initiative, and you cant expect someone to be a friend without being one yourself.