I was sitting in my living room, we call it a great room because its so large, watching a movie. I just started to feel so lonely and I started to think and it only got worse. I started to cry, I tried to finish watching the movie, but it was useless, I couldn't see thru the tears. I just feel so lonely and vounerable right now and I don't know ( Read more... )

the pieces break away
i pick them up
stack them back together
they fall down again
i pick them up
glue them together
they burst apart
i pick them up
nail them together
they wear with time
i pick up whats left
try to make what was, be again
they fall over
i let them lay
staring at them
lay beside them
sleep
maybe later it'll work

guilty before proven innocent
pawn placed for the excitement of the game
in the dark place the gun in my mouth
you pull the trigger
light turns on
whos brains are splatterd all over the wall
so eager to find someone hurting you
you hurt yourself in the excitement of anger

2 really good friends hate me. this is the shit that makes me want to leave the net. im sorry.

im going to lay down now.

Tip 1 : Know the spy, before you even know you have an enemy.

what I would give to make your pain go away
what I would do to make it all ok
every hour of everyday I'd spend with you
holding you up when you feel you cant continue on
cuddling tight in the darkness of the night
you name it
whatever I can do, I'd do

I wish I could put you in my pocket ( Read more... )

I feel gross, like sick gross. My ear hurts, Im hot and my head hurts again. I have to wake up in 4 hours, roughly. I hope I feel better then. Today was okay, cept for one part of it. Belh, sometimes things happen that I never wouldve expected. Anyway -- everyones asleep, so I figure Ill do the same. Ill post later this mornin.

peace G's

Im going to ramble again and I really dont care what any of you think about it. Well, I care about what maybe two of you think, but thats all ( Read more... )

I missed Julian this morning, I thought he'd not be on so early on account of pres day. I didnt think he'd have school at all. Anyway, Im kicking myself for making such an assuption. Right now I don't at all great. I woke up with this massive headache and I went downstairs to get pain killers and walking back up those stairs made my head pound ( Read more... )