holy shat my life is a huge mess right now. I feel like it keeps getting messier and messier and messier and I just can't stop it. I feel like I'm spinning out of con-fucking-trol and it's infuriating
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i haven't heard from you in a while. i'll comment on the ol'lj!
i'm rapidly approaching the end of school --> real J-O-B --> a bit o'cash and different time tables --> hanging out?
i miss you. since we moved out and had to go and open the store we've completely lost touch. i don't like that. my shit should be clearing up by the end of August when mommakins and gramma come for a VISIT! and we should grab some ______________(insert any cheap and or easy activity here).
i seriously would like to do like a once-a-month craft fest with you, once we both have the time.
and PS. how can it be you? you have friends - you DO function. this band thing was weird the first time around too tbh.
I can make the time. clabbs. I seriously have been so malignantly depressed lately that all I do is work, come home and waste time on the internet doing NOTHING, then go to bed way too late, wake up, repeat. There's the occasional bike ride with Kaleb, and now we're going to the gym together which is nice (i hate working out alone, and hate all the dirties that cluster at 24hr fitness) but I'm trying to change that.
I don't like that we never see each other either, but I know you've got a LOT going on right now with the store and school and whatnot. I have total confidence in the fact that after not having seen much of each other for a while, we could get together and it'd be like old times..
I've also been creatively dead. like, I have no creative thoughts whatsoever. not a one. I think about doing something creative, but it's never anything that comes to fruition or has a point. I want to draw, but I have nothing to draw. I want to sew something, but I don't bother. Nothing makes me happy anymore, and instead of being "whatever"
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dragon fish is on pike or something right? isn't that the one that's all red and near the theater? do you know what i'm talking about? i think me and tobs used to go there for sushi and stuff...
let me get through the next two weeks (the last two of this quarter) cause i got SERIOUS shit to do around my thesis, then i'll be able to have free time to make something happen. =)
it was a one time thing cos wedgewood was busy or booked or something. We're at Immaculate Conception now.
I'm not going to quit because they don't talk to me, I just keep to myself there now. I sit alone in my truck on breaks, then I leave as soon as band is over. Sometimes even a few moments before. Fucking sucks, but I like playing so I won't quit.
Richie and Kate don't even talk to me. that's part of my problem. Richie stopped giving me rides with no explanation or anything, when I tried to talk to kate she'd entertain me for a few moments and then leave. She seems a lot different than before. I'm sure I am too. Whatever. I guess I'll have to be there for a year or two before anyone gives a fuck that I'm alive. *shrug*
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i'm rapidly approaching the end of school --> real J-O-B --> a bit o'cash and different time tables --> hanging out?
i miss you. since we moved out and had to go and open the store we've completely lost touch. i don't like that. my shit should be clearing up by the end of August when mommakins and gramma come for a VISIT! and we should grab some ______________(insert any cheap and or easy activity here).
i seriously would like to do like a once-a-month craft fest with you, once we both have the time.
and PS. how can it be you? you have friends - you DO function. this band thing was weird the first time around too tbh.
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I don't like that we never see each other either, but I know you've got a LOT going on right now with the store and school and whatnot. I have total confidence in the fact that after not having seen much of each other for a while, we could get together and it'd be like old times..
I've also been creatively dead. like, I have no creative thoughts whatsoever. not a one. I think about doing something creative, but it's never anything that comes to fruition or has a point. I want to draw, but I have nothing to draw. I want to sew something, but I don't bother. Nothing makes me happy anymore, and instead of being "whatever" ( ... )
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let me get through the next two weeks (the last two of this quarter) cause i got SERIOUS shit to do around my thesis, then i'll be able to have free time to make something happen. =)
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where are you guys practicing in my hood or was it a one time thing?
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I'm not going to quit because they don't talk to me, I just keep to myself there now. I sit alone in my truck on breaks, then I leave as soon as band is over. Sometimes even a few moments before. Fucking sucks, but I like playing so I won't quit.
Richie and Kate don't even talk to me. that's part of my problem. Richie stopped giving me rides with no explanation or anything, when I tried to talk to kate she'd entertain me for a few moments and then leave. She seems a lot different than before. I'm sure I am too. Whatever. I guess I'll have to be there for a year or two before anyone gives a fuck that I'm alive. *shrug*
I wish you were there every rehearsal.
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