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hey friends! i'm back. i'm in the process of unpacking and decompressing, but i think it's safe to say updates will be more frequent from here on out. =)
i wouldn't feel right starting the new year without doing this.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
meet angela davis, feel 'meh' about a linkin park album, pay bills, live with someone i really dig, get a matching tattoo, watch buffy the vampire slayer (late bloomer but great investment!), fuck someone with a strap-on, participate in an orgy, participate in something like public group sex but can more accurately be described as a public heavy kinky group makeout that resulted in an orgasm, have a functional and communicative open relationship.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
in 2010 i planned to have more sex! and learn to listen to my instincts. i definitely achieved the first one (hollaaaaa), but i'm still trying to figure out the second one. in 2011 i will survive, i will write, i will dream, and i will learn to play the drums.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no
5. What countries did you visit?
none. i didn't so much as leave the state this year.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
a job!
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
graduating. actually surviving school. whaaat.
9. What was your biggest failure?
i definitely could have stood to pass all my classes in the spring. my entire situation at the end of the year would have been completely different.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
not really
11. What was the best thing you bought?
casa diva. without doubt. sometimes i just sit and look at the walls and think about how awesome it is that i have my own place, how privileged i am.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my chemical romance.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own, probably. my dad's, definitely. but i'm learning to live with that.
14. Where did most of your money go?
casa diva.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
having sex, queer kinships, the love of my academic life jac asher ♥____♥, Danger Days, seeing travie mccoy live, moving in with sarah, graduating
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
can't think of one
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder?
happier!
ii. Thinner or thicker?
thinner!
iii. Richer or poorer?
poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
being confident, listening to myself. [same answer as last year]
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating and second-guessing myself.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
my sister drove me and my grandmother out to my mom's house on christmas eve and we spent christmas day in her house enjoying the company of my mom and her partner and her irritating drunk friend. i femmed up for grandma (in a way that didn't make me feel inadequate or unhappy) and all was well.
21. How will you spend New Year's Eve?
i spent it right the fuck here, on my dad's couch with my dogs sleeping on the floor, watching a criminal minds marathon, baked as hell. it felt damn good.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
no. i sincerely wanted to, but i think it's not meant to happen again quite yet.
23. How many one-night stands?
none
24. What was your favourite TV program?
buffy the vampire slayer
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope.
26. What was the best book you read?
i'm reading all about love by bell hooks. it blows my fucking mind with its honesty, relatability and sincerity. i will seriously keep a copy of this book until i die.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
liam and william's collective repertoire. i need to learn to tap into the wealth of resources around me.
this year i found: miike snow, kid cudi, deadmau5, mstrkrft, the lost bois, and jesse cook
28. What did you want and get?
to love myself. to have functional relationships. to live with someone i love and have synergy with. to become a cool oakland queer.
29. What did you want and not get?
to pass all my classes, brendon urie, to graduate in may, to bang a boy, clio, the other travie, cody, desiree, hella money, a job
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
the Watermelon Woman. that film is fucking brilliant and beautiful. there are so many elements to it that challenge traditional forms, but in a completely non-pretentious, non-edgy/experimental way. dunye brings herself, her spirit, and her intersections of identity to the plate and apologizes for none of them fucking excellent. and i love all fo the 90s dyke fashion. excellent.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
on my birthday i got up early to masturbate before class (excellent choice), and then went to spanish class. erlinda picked me up and she and kory and i got stoned and laid in the sun at the park in north berkeley. i just remember the sun and the trees and feeling so warm and content. i turned 22.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
being less broke.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
uh, i wouldn't.
34. What kept you sane?
myself, my queer kin, weed, music, and hope.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
brendon urie
36. Who did you miss?
clara lee
37. Who was the best new person you met?
macio, ♥ jac asher ♥, joseph h-s, holly, ami, emily o, krystal l,
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
it's not the "whoops, i fucked up" part of things that's most important; it's learning to fix shit after.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
these are the good times in your life
so put on a smile and it'll be alright.
40. Parting words to 2010?
what to say, what to say! you were not nearly as scary as i'd anticipated. diva synergy, gws grad, jac asher, joseph, qpoc and snaps!, sheila, being the same person as briana, bromance with chloe, seeing the young veins, spontaneously dippin to go see travie, jeni, marea, 420 orgy, bent, makeout parties, awkward dates, watching kory make music, graduating! i've learned so much. i am ready for the next.
i wouldn't feel right starting the new year without doing this.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
meet angela davis, feel 'meh' about a linkin park album, pay bills, live with someone i really dig, get a matching tattoo, watch buffy the vampire slayer (late bloomer but great investment!), fuck someone with a strap-on, participate in an orgy, participate in something like public group sex but can more accurately be described as a public heavy kinky group makeout that resulted in an orgasm, have a functional and communicative open relationship.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
in 2010 i planned to have more sex! and learn to listen to my instincts. i definitely achieved the first one (hollaaaaa), but i'm still trying to figure out the second one. in 2011 i will survive, i will write, i will dream, and i will learn to play the drums.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no
5. What countries did you visit?
none. i didn't so much as leave the state this year.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
a job!
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- my first kiss with jeni. the rose gardens, up in a fucking tree. 2nd hottest thing i've ever experienced, truth
- the hottest thing i've ever experienced, which was fucking someone with a strap-on and having them ride me. holyshit.
- moving in with sarah and having diva synergy!
- the week of my graduation ceremony: playing pool with my partner and my family, having kory enthusiastically thank my parents for unleashing me onto the world, my thesis presentation, matching tattoos with chloe, meeting angela davis, jeni's poem at the ceremony, alison d-g saying fuck you to the haters in her speech, cheering for each other and hugging our professors during the procession. love.
- riding my bike to a queer dance party in oakland with sarah and feeling like it was the gayest thing i'd ever done
- going to the bondage club with a group of friends and ending up in a heavy kinky public makeout session with them. des actually coming in the midst of all this.
- dyke march! having long beach and bay area lives mix and meet in beautiful and surprising ways. william tells me that dyke march was the best day of his life thus far, and that he just remembers sitting on that hill in dolores park, smokin and drinkin and looking at all of the beautiful dykes and queers and feeling so happy.
- walking with siobhan so excited and pumped and thrilled, babbling about my chem while going to pick up danger days after class
- listening to n*sync and painting the coffee table with sarah. we are so damn cute.
- lightin up my first post-undergrad blunt with juliana, briana and kim chen. ugh tasted so good.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
graduating. actually surviving school. whaaat.
9. What was your biggest failure?
i definitely could have stood to pass all my classes in the spring. my entire situation at the end of the year would have been completely different.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
not really
11. What was the best thing you bought?
casa diva. without doubt. sometimes i just sit and look at the walls and think about how awesome it is that i have my own place, how privileged i am.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my chemical romance.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own, probably. my dad's, definitely. but i'm learning to live with that.
14. Where did most of your money go?
casa diva.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
having sex, queer kinships, the love of my academic life jac asher ♥____♥, Danger Days, seeing travie mccoy live, moving in with sarah, graduating
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
can't think of one
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder?
happier!
ii. Thinner or thicker?
thinner!
iii. Richer or poorer?
poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
being confident, listening to myself. [same answer as last year]
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating and second-guessing myself.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
my sister drove me and my grandmother out to my mom's house on christmas eve and we spent christmas day in her house enjoying the company of my mom and her partner and her irritating drunk friend. i femmed up for grandma (in a way that didn't make me feel inadequate or unhappy) and all was well.
21. How will you spend New Year's Eve?
i spent it right the fuck here, on my dad's couch with my dogs sleeping on the floor, watching a criminal minds marathon, baked as hell. it felt damn good.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
no. i sincerely wanted to, but i think it's not meant to happen again quite yet.
23. How many one-night stands?
none
24. What was your favourite TV program?
buffy the vampire slayer
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope.
26. What was the best book you read?
i'm reading all about love by bell hooks. it blows my fucking mind with its honesty, relatability and sincerity. i will seriously keep a copy of this book until i die.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
liam and william's collective repertoire. i need to learn to tap into the wealth of resources around me.
this year i found: miike snow, kid cudi, deadmau5, mstrkrft, the lost bois, and jesse cook
28. What did you want and get?
to love myself. to have functional relationships. to live with someone i love and have synergy with. to become a cool oakland queer.
29. What did you want and not get?
to pass all my classes, brendon urie, to graduate in may, to bang a boy, clio, the other travie, cody, desiree, hella money, a job
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
the Watermelon Woman. that film is fucking brilliant and beautiful. there are so many elements to it that challenge traditional forms, but in a completely non-pretentious, non-edgy/experimental way. dunye brings herself, her spirit, and her intersections of identity to the plate and apologizes for none of them fucking excellent. and i love all fo the 90s dyke fashion. excellent.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
on my birthday i got up early to masturbate before class (excellent choice), and then went to spanish class. erlinda picked me up and she and kory and i got stoned and laid in the sun at the park in north berkeley. i just remember the sun and the trees and feeling so warm and content. i turned 22.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
being less broke.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
uh, i wouldn't.
34. What kept you sane?
myself, my queer kin, weed, music, and hope.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
brendon urie
36. Who did you miss?
clara lee
37. Who was the best new person you met?
macio, ♥ jac asher ♥, joseph h-s, holly, ami, emily o, krystal l,
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
it's not the "whoops, i fucked up" part of things that's most important; it's learning to fix shit after.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
these are the good times in your life
so put on a smile and it'll be alright.
40. Parting words to 2010?
what to say, what to say! you were not nearly as scary as i'd anticipated. diva synergy, gws grad, jac asher, joseph, qpoc and snaps!, sheila, being the same person as briana, bromance with chloe, seeing the young veins, spontaneously dippin to go see travie, jeni, marea, 420 orgy, bent, makeout parties, awkward dates, watching kory make music, graduating! i've learned so much. i am ready for the next.