[Voice Post]
[Private to Self]
Can I win?
[Sounds of her shaking her head - even with those simple motions she sounds drained]
I was aware of this as a possibility. Though I never saw any time like this, nor this place. Never once, I cannot even recall anything similar to it in any of my past visions. But I am grateful for that. For once, it is a pleasant surprise to know nothing of what is to come.
It's almost humorous in a way. I actually want to live now, I have no wish to see that vision come to pass anymore. Perhaps, [She lets out a weak laugh to herself] perhaps it's even safe to say I have discovered a me to have, apart from that vision.
If this really is extra time, then I am grateful to have it. But it won't last much longer, will it?
But if I can do something, that will allow everyone to still smile, for him to still smile, then I want to take that chance. I do not wish for Chrono to worry any longer. There are much more important things for him to be concerned with. If what I have heard is true then things will not change. I will still be able to spend the time with Chrono and with the others here like I wish to. It isn't really a loss in that way.
So as long as that can be true, then I do not mind this decision. If it's a decision I can make that will change things. I will no longer be in that bird cage anymore, even with such a choice as this. Because of this place, I can do something to change the ends, I don't have to simply watch and accept things. It's a difference that I can make if I really do scream, cry, beg, hate, the outcome can now change from that. I'm not tied to what I've seen any longer because of this place.
But what will you think? I had thought I saw your face, that day after I had fainted. I thought it was a vision. That's how, what you call dreams, are for me. But after you had explained what had happened, it must have been real. I didn't tell you what I thought I saw. I didn't want to see you make such a face. You looked terrified, and you were looking straight towards me. I wanted to speak but I could not. If that is what will happen so long as Pandaemonium is with me then I feel this is the right thing. I am sorry, I cannot apologize to you enough. But I promise to stay as long as I can. If this may help with that, then it is worth it to me. I never want to scare you like that again.
[End Private to Self]
[Deity Filter]
I apologize, I have heard about the Deities here from others. I was told that it would be possible to make exchanges, correct? If so, I have a request, if it is not too much to ask.
[End Filter]
It seems the flowers and trees are all in bloom. It really is as beautiful as I had imagined. I'll have to see what Xanadu is like soon. It really does bring even more life to this City. I'm sure it looks even more wonderful at night.
I'm sorry though, Road. I suppose we won't be able to spend time in the snow as we had planned. It seems we may need to wait until next year. I'm sorry, I hope that would be all right with you. I understand if you've changed your mind though. It is a rather long wait.
Can I win?
[Sounds of her shaking her head - even with those simple motions she sounds drained]
I was aware of this as a possibility. Though I never saw any time like this, nor this place. Never once, I cannot even recall anything similar to it in any of my past visions. But I am grateful for that. For once, it is a pleasant surprise to know nothing of what is to come.
It's almost humorous in a way. I actually want to live now, I have no wish to see that vision come to pass anymore. Perhaps, [She lets out a weak laugh to herself] perhaps it's even safe to say I have discovered a me to have, apart from that vision.
If this really is extra time, then I am grateful to have it. But it won't last much longer, will it?
But if I can do something, that will allow everyone to still smile, for him to still smile, then I want to take that chance. I do not wish for Chrono to worry any longer. There are much more important things for him to be concerned with. If what I have heard is true then things will not change. I will still be able to spend the time with Chrono and with the others here like I wish to. It isn't really a loss in that way.
So as long as that can be true, then I do not mind this decision. If it's a decision I can make that will change things. I will no longer be in that bird cage anymore, even with such a choice as this. Because of this place, I can do something to change the ends, I don't have to simply watch and accept things. It's a difference that I can make if I really do scream, cry, beg, hate, the outcome can now change from that. I'm not tied to what I've seen any longer because of this place.
But what will you think? I had thought I saw your face, that day after I had fainted. I thought it was a vision. That's how, what you call dreams, are for me. But after you had explained what had happened, it must have been real. I didn't tell you what I thought I saw. I didn't want to see you make such a face. You looked terrified, and you were looking straight towards me. I wanted to speak but I could not. If that is what will happen so long as Pandaemonium is with me then I feel this is the right thing. I am sorry, I cannot apologize to you enough. But I promise to stay as long as I can. If this may help with that, then it is worth it to me. I never want to scare you like that again.
[End Private to Self]
[Deity Filter]
I apologize, I have heard about the Deities here from others. I was told that it would be possible to make exchanges, correct? If so, I have a request, if it is not too much to ask.
[End Filter]
It seems the flowers and trees are all in bloom. It really is as beautiful as I had imagined. I'll have to see what Xanadu is like soon. It really does bring even more life to this City. I'm sure it looks even more wonderful at night.
I'm sorry though, Road. I suppose we won't be able to spend time in the snow as we had planned. It seems we may need to wait until next year. I'm sorry, I hope that would be all right with you. I understand if you've changed your mind though. It is a rather long wait.