A Fool's Folly
Chapter 3
Kim Jaejoong.......... kim Jaejoong ..........
the name kept resonating within my mind, what is happening? why does it feel like there is still warmth left in this cold cold world? how funny! am i yearning to see to him already? the silliness of the situation never fails to get me, but nothing is stopping my heart from pounding and wishing to gaze at his face for a moment longer.
i ran fast, the cold wind brushing brazenly against my cheeks. but i felt that nothing can deter the wide smile on my face. on my way i stop at the temple, clasping my hands tightly in earnest prayer i asked God to help me meet that beautiful man again.
As i approach the court house in complete glee, i opened the door only to see the matron standing in front with a couple of her assistants in the front foyer. before i could even wonder about their strange behaviour, a tight slap was delivered across my face. stunned by the action i was at a loss for words for a few seconds. but i guess my words weren't necessary.
" you conniving bitch" she slapped me so hard that i fell to the ground. she came at me and with wicked forced pulled at my hair " did you think you can outsmart me..huh? did you think i wouldn't find out your pathetic little plan?....keeping her eyes on me she yelled "search his room!!" i panicked...all the money i had saved up for months was in there.
"whats this we got here? stealing money?" " no, i did not steal, give it back you filthy bastards" i made a fast move with my hand to grab at the mans legs, i couldn't run at him and kill him like i wanted to as the bitch still had my hair in her hands...she replied in a soft tone menacingly "i am not sure you understand junsu, the only filthy thing here is you and your rotten whore of a mother." you think you're better than everyone else, trying to escape from here? let me tell you this, you will never be anything more than a whore, i will make sure you will part your dainty little legs that dare run away for the most vile men."
i spat on her face in anger and defiance. if eyes could kill then i would have bee torn to bits by now by my eyes didn't say any less to her. her assistants come forward to hit me. at this point i did not want to back away in fear like a coward i was taunting them to come at me with my look. " the matron wiped her face and smile a really evil smile...to my surprise or should i say horror she said..." leave him alone" " but madame he..." i said leave him alone, weren't u listening?!" i knew she has planned something and i knew that this was far from over, suddenly dread started to form in the pits of my stomach. my breathing became laboured after she smiled at me and turned on her heels, i could think i knew i had to move fast i was running out of time. i was trying to process what was going through her mind, i looked like a crazy lunatic i am sure the bitch will be laughing when she sees me.
the soft cries from my mother were disturbing my already turbulent soul. my eyes widened when realization struck me. i ran to my mother quickly, never mind my bleeding scalp i had to get her out of here. i cannot bring myself to picture the torment in store. " we have to get away.....we have to get away...hurry hurry! what are you looking at we have to get away!! don't you hear!! we have to get away"
i ran into the room looking for a weapon and grabbed our coats on my way back i know i ma losing my mind but don't you see we have to get away. i hurried back to my mother and pulled her up, her body was slack like a ragged doll she lagged behind me, it frustrated me that she doesn't see that we have to get awat now. " omma why are like this? palli!!! we have to get away from here...why aren't you listening we have to get away AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!" i broke down in tears my heart cant take this....what did i do so wrong? have i been selfish in my wishes? is it so wrong to wish to retain the last bit of pride as a human? is it so wrong to wish my mother to rest in peace with some dignity? is it so wrong to want to live? what grave mistake did we do to deserve this. Oh God! Oh God!...i beg you to forgive my selfishness, save me, somebody save me. i dropped to my knees with my face buried in my hands, tears flowing inexplicably. i felt that nothing would subside this anguish, it would have been better to be born without a heart for it wouldn't hurt so much.
my body wasn't reacting to my wishes, the blood flow is haywire, my hand shivering, all i wanted to do was to save us from what was awaiting for i knew that none of us would be the same ever again.
okay seriously its like i have brain freeze or something.......i know what i want to write but my body isnt listening to my mind lol. i had a few more things to add to this chapter but i guess something is better than nothing right. i am so sorry about such a late update, shit happened and i dont even want to think about it. i will try to update sooner. for those if any who have been anticipating here it is. i will add more to it later this week. susuie i am sorry to have kept u waiting dear.
Kim Jaejoong.......... kim Jaejoong ..........
the name kept resonating within my mind, what is happening? why does it feel like there is still warmth left in this cold cold world? how funny! am i yearning to see to him already? the silliness of the situation never fails to get me, but nothing is stopping my heart from pounding and wishing to gaze at his face for a moment longer.
i ran fast, the cold wind brushing brazenly against my cheeks. but i felt that nothing can deter the wide smile on my face. on my way i stop at the temple, clasping my hands tightly in earnest prayer i asked God to help me meet that beautiful man again.
As i approach the court house in complete glee, i opened the door only to see the matron standing in front with a couple of her assistants in the front foyer. before i could even wonder about their strange behaviour, a tight slap was delivered across my face. stunned by the action i was at a loss for words for a few seconds. but i guess my words weren't necessary.
" you conniving bitch" she slapped me so hard that i fell to the ground. she came at me and with wicked forced pulled at my hair " did you think you can outsmart me..huh? did you think i wouldn't find out your pathetic little plan?....keeping her eyes on me she yelled "search his room!!" i panicked...all the money i had saved up for months was in there.
"whats this we got here? stealing money?" " no, i did not steal, give it back you filthy bastards" i made a fast move with my hand to grab at the mans legs, i couldn't run at him and kill him like i wanted to as the bitch still had my hair in her hands...she replied in a soft tone menacingly "i am not sure you understand junsu, the only filthy thing here is you and your rotten whore of a mother." you think you're better than everyone else, trying to escape from here? let me tell you this, you will never be anything more than a whore, i will make sure you will part your dainty little legs that dare run away for the most vile men."
i spat on her face in anger and defiance. if eyes could kill then i would have bee torn to bits by now by my eyes didn't say any less to her. her assistants come forward to hit me. at this point i did not want to back away in fear like a coward i was taunting them to come at me with my look. " the matron wiped her face and smile a really evil smile...to my surprise or should i say horror she said..." leave him alone" " but madame he..." i said leave him alone, weren't u listening?!" i knew she has planned something and i knew that this was far from over, suddenly dread started to form in the pits of my stomach. my breathing became laboured after she smiled at me and turned on her heels, i could think i knew i had to move fast i was running out of time. i was trying to process what was going through her mind, i looked like a crazy lunatic i am sure the bitch will be laughing when she sees me.
the soft cries from my mother were disturbing my already turbulent soul. my eyes widened when realization struck me. i ran to my mother quickly, never mind my bleeding scalp i had to get her out of here. i cannot bring myself to picture the torment in store. " we have to get away.....we have to get away...hurry hurry! what are you looking at we have to get away!! don't you hear!! we have to get away"
i ran into the room looking for a weapon and grabbed our coats on my way back i know i ma losing my mind but don't you see we have to get away. i hurried back to my mother and pulled her up, her body was slack like a ragged doll she lagged behind me, it frustrated me that she doesn't see that we have to get awat now. " omma why are like this? palli!!! we have to get away from here...why aren't you listening we have to get away AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!" i broke down in tears my heart cant take this....what did i do so wrong? have i been selfish in my wishes? is it so wrong to wish to retain the last bit of pride as a human? is it so wrong to wish my mother to rest in peace with some dignity? is it so wrong to want to live? what grave mistake did we do to deserve this. Oh God! Oh God!...i beg you to forgive my selfishness, save me, somebody save me. i dropped to my knees with my face buried in my hands, tears flowing inexplicably. i felt that nothing would subside this anguish, it would have been better to be born without a heart for it wouldn't hurt so much.
my body wasn't reacting to my wishes, the blood flow is haywire, my hand shivering, all i wanted to do was to save us from what was awaiting for i knew that none of us would be the same ever again.
okay seriously its like i have brain freeze or something.......i know what i want to write but my body isnt listening to my mind lol. i had a few more things to add to this chapter but i guess something is better than nothing right. i am so sorry about such a late update, shit happened and i dont even want to think about it. i will try to update sooner. for those if any who have been anticipating here it is. i will add more to it later this week. susuie i am sorry to have kept u waiting dear.