since you're the only one who reads this, happy birthday, cecilia!!!!!!

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?  YOU'RE GOING TO GET ON MY ASS ABOUT MY LAUNDRY SITTING ON TOP OF THE DRYER FOR 3 DAYS?!?!  WHY DON'T YOU GET ON HER FAT ASS ABOUT LEAVING HER SHIT THERE FOR A FUCKING MONTH?  ACTING LIKE THE LAUNDRY ROOM IS HER CLOSET!  FUCK THAT SHIT.  DON'T BITCH AT ME BECAUSE YOU DON'T GET ANY ASS.  FUCK YOU.  I NEED TO MOVE OUT OF ( Read more... )

things are good.

lonely but good.

talk to me in a week.  these feelings will change, i'm sure.

you're not on my mind all day and night anymore.
i don't want to be your girlfriend anymore.
i don't want to "date" you anymore.
i don't want you to be anything more than just a friend.
and i guess i wouldn't even mind if we weren't "BEST friends" anymore.
co-worker is iffy.
all i want from you now is closure.
i just want to sit down with you, face to ( Read more... )

i still smile like a fool every time i talk to you.
but at the same time, i know me talking to you is going to hurt me in the long run.
so the smile fades and the heart starts to hurt.
and then you say the simplest thing and i'm smiling all over again.
i wish i could get over you more.  
i wish i didn't wake up every morning thinking about you.
i wish i ( Read more... )

three days.  that's all i have to get through... and i'm on day two.  i can do it.

he's being such a petty asshole.  he's totally rubbing it in my face too.  that's what helps me get over it.  he's a total dick and i hate that.

i dont know how it's possible but i'm becoming more attached instead of less.  it's hurting more now than it  did a few weeks ago.  what is wrong with me?!  i'm dying inside and i don't know what to do anymore.  i want to know what the hell is happening. 

tonight, i wanted to sob like a big baby.  and usually when i am in a sobfest mood, i run to him.  and he gives me the shoulder to cry on.  tonight, i ran to him in my normal pansie manner and he ignored me.  i watched the movie that always gets my mind off of things, started to feel a little better and then i go online only to see that now he's in ( Read more... )

lol at me actually doing the whole college party thing.  and the whole college thing is right.  i did it to help get over him but it made it worse.  and then i spent some time around him this weekend and i realized that i don't think i want to be with him anymore.  i changed myself to be "compatible" with him and that's not what i want to have to ( Read more... )

omg.  thank you augustana for this song.  it is totally my feelings for the past year... i hate california and i want out.  and ever since i met my Amherst friends, i realized that boston is where i want to be.  and this song says all of that...

"Boston"

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are ( Read more... )