WORRIES OF MY FUTURE.
I am panicking about my life. Like, I'm having a mid-life crisis at fifteen. Help.
So last January I had to pick my options for my GCSE exam courses for Year 10, which I am currently in. I picked Dance, Drama, History and German, and of course I have to do all the compulsory things like Maths, English, Religious Studies, Citizenship, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, and Core PE. I'm managing okay, except NO I'M NOT.
I'm in the top set for Maths, and we got given a new teacher to the school who CAN NOT TEACH. I AM GOING TO FAIL MY EXAM BECAUSE OF HER I SWEAR TO GOD. Let alone the fact that she's the most irritating and annoying and patronising woman on the face of the earth.
I want to slap my English teacher in the face, but that's not the brightest idea because she's my form tutor. I say something "rude" to her and I get excluded. But I'm also in top set for this, and I have NO IDEA why because I'm not the best at English, but when I try to tell her that I'm not getting it, she won't listen and is all like "You are expected an A or A*" and leaves it at that. ERSEHJEKKKKKKKKKKKFI
Biology, Chemistry and Physics are the FUCKING DEVIL. I've never understood science, is just doesn't compute in my brain... I just don't understand anything to do with it. Biology I'm coming to grips with because it's real and it exists and you can see it. But the others.. I just can't. I can't really explain it. (Got an E in my mock for Chemistry. Hahahaha.)
I loved History in Years 7, 8 and 9, but this year it's all politics. It's so incredibly boring, and confusing and complicated, and I just lose concentration. I WANT to understand this but it's not working. But I'm going to Berlin in July for the World War course which I'm SO excited about.
I'm loving Drama and Dance so much, but only the practical side of it. All the theory and written work is beyond me. It's like, we have to write it a certain way, describing how we developed a piece and then why we did it and what we did and I can't exactly put into words how I danced a certain move and why I did it and what I exactly did with my body to achieve it. I just don't know!
So that's enough rant for subjects right now. But omg ANOTHER part of my rant is the whole fact that we have to choose our options so young. I was fourteen, but most of the year was thirteen and I just think it's insane that you have to basically choose your CAREER at that age. Why is this so? Well:
1) GCSEs help you get into you A-Level courses, or colleges, or universities, or jobs
2) A-Levels help you get into universities or jobs
3) University degrees get you jobs.
4) JOBS GIVE YOU MONEY TO L I V E.
So you have to choose the right options so you have the right course to study and the right degree and the right job. If you take Art as a GCSE, it's very rare you'll become a weatherman. So you have to have a clear idea of what you want to do when you're older so you're not stumped when it comes to finding a solid career.
I picked German because we had to pick a language, and it was either that or French, which I struggle with. I guess it is handy to have a language to fall back on when in other countries, but I don't think I'll be needing it in the future as much.
I picked Dance because it's my only slight talent and I love it so much, and I would love to have a career in it. But they last about ten years maximum considering you don't get injured. And it's ridiculously hard to get a decent career out of it any way, it's a dog-eat-dog world out there.
I picked Drama because it's good to have it paired with Dance if I want to go into Theatre or I get into a musical or anything.
I picked History because my mum wanted me to have something more academic to fall onto if I change my mind in the future about where I want to go in my career.
BUT THE THING IS I CHANGE MY MIND ALL THE TIME ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN I GET OLDER.
Like I said, dancing is a hard career to stay in and it doesn't last forever. So I have other things in my mind like being a teacher, or a social worker/therapist (I'm planning to take Psychology for one of my A-Level/College course).
But another thing is that soon I am self publishing a few of my stories. The whole excitement of it makes me wonder if I want to be an author as a career. But there's English I need to focus on and ARGH.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.
(BUT OMG SO EXCITED ABOUT SELF PUBLISHING)
So last January I had to pick my options for my GCSE exam courses for Year 10, which I am currently in. I picked Dance, Drama, History and German, and of course I have to do all the compulsory things like Maths, English, Religious Studies, Citizenship, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, and Core PE. I'm managing okay, except NO I'M NOT.
I'm in the top set for Maths, and we got given a new teacher to the school who CAN NOT TEACH. I AM GOING TO FAIL MY EXAM BECAUSE OF HER I SWEAR TO GOD. Let alone the fact that she's the most irritating and annoying and patronising woman on the face of the earth.
I want to slap my English teacher in the face, but that's not the brightest idea because she's my form tutor. I say something "rude" to her and I get excluded. But I'm also in top set for this, and I have NO IDEA why because I'm not the best at English, but when I try to tell her that I'm not getting it, she won't listen and is all like "You are expected an A or A*" and leaves it at that. ERSEHJEKKKKKKKKKKKFI
Biology, Chemistry and Physics are the FUCKING DEVIL. I've never understood science, is just doesn't compute in my brain... I just don't understand anything to do with it. Biology I'm coming to grips with because it's real and it exists and you can see it. But the others.. I just can't. I can't really explain it. (Got an E in my mock for Chemistry. Hahahaha.)
I loved History in Years 7, 8 and 9, but this year it's all politics. It's so incredibly boring, and confusing and complicated, and I just lose concentration. I WANT to understand this but it's not working. But I'm going to Berlin in July for the World War course which I'm SO excited about.
I'm loving Drama and Dance so much, but only the practical side of it. All the theory and written work is beyond me. It's like, we have to write it a certain way, describing how we developed a piece and then why we did it and what we did and I can't exactly put into words how I danced a certain move and why I did it and what I exactly did with my body to achieve it. I just don't know!
So that's enough rant for subjects right now. But omg ANOTHER part of my rant is the whole fact that we have to choose our options so young. I was fourteen, but most of the year was thirteen and I just think it's insane that you have to basically choose your CAREER at that age. Why is this so? Well:
1) GCSEs help you get into you A-Level courses, or colleges, or universities, or jobs
2) A-Levels help you get into universities or jobs
3) University degrees get you jobs.
4) JOBS GIVE YOU MONEY TO L I V E.
So you have to choose the right options so you have the right course to study and the right degree and the right job. If you take Art as a GCSE, it's very rare you'll become a weatherman. So you have to have a clear idea of what you want to do when you're older so you're not stumped when it comes to finding a solid career.
I picked German because we had to pick a language, and it was either that or French, which I struggle with. I guess it is handy to have a language to fall back on when in other countries, but I don't think I'll be needing it in the future as much.
I picked Dance because it's my only slight talent and I love it so much, and I would love to have a career in it. But they last about ten years maximum considering you don't get injured. And it's ridiculously hard to get a decent career out of it any way, it's a dog-eat-dog world out there.
I picked Drama because it's good to have it paired with Dance if I want to go into Theatre or I get into a musical or anything.
I picked History because my mum wanted me to have something more academic to fall onto if I change my mind in the future about where I want to go in my career.
BUT THE THING IS I CHANGE MY MIND ALL THE TIME ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN I GET OLDER.
Like I said, dancing is a hard career to stay in and it doesn't last forever. So I have other things in my mind like being a teacher, or a social worker/therapist (I'm planning to take Psychology for one of my A-Level/College course).
But another thing is that soon I am self publishing a few of my stories. The whole excitement of it makes me wonder if I want to be an author as a career. But there's English I need to focus on and ARGH.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.
(BUT OMG SO EXCITED ABOUT SELF PUBLISHING)