ROAR!

[valkos]

i'm not happy right now at all. last night at the house sucked really fuckng bad, a security guard there that doesn't like me had me taken from the spot i have had secured for 2 fucking seasons now. i don't even know if i will get it back tonight. it's not so much the fact that i have to have a new spot but it's the fact that it's a huge kick in

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[sandywich]

meep... i hope theres a later. who else is going to beat up old people with me? hang in there but not by a noose. later.

Where am I when you need me? Here I am!

[baimouse]

I don't even know what to say to that except that my life is so fucked up right now that the noose sounds pretty good. I'm in the eye of a raging shit storm and it's never NEVER gonna end! I've almost cut myself 3 more times, I've pushed myself away from a few people I care about, and 2 people that were supposed to love me and be my best friends took turns stabbing me in the back. I'm so full of rage that I can't even sleep... Can't even eat and I can barely breathe. Jeanna's on a rampage and keeps trying to break free, Mouse is all beat up from Jeanna and Faith has taken a temporary leave of absence. There is a huge hole in my heart that I have no clue if it will ever be filled again but I'm trying so hard to be happy... I'm trying so damn hard but every time I try to do something that makes me happy other people get hurt. I really just want to fuckin' die, ya know? I don't want to be here anymore, but I have to be. I'm meant to be here so I'm forced to suffer under the Goddess' hand, though she attempts to help me. I find myself

Re: Where am I when you need me? Here I am!

[valkos]

i would have helped you if u asked me. i was there for you when u needed me but u didn't think to call hunny. don't ever say you don't have any help becuase i'm always able to help you.

Re: Where am I when you need me? Here I am!

[baimouse]

I know you're here when I need you. I didn't need help. I still don't need help. It's just, I've been busy trying to fix me.

Earth Mother