I don't want to invest in another person. ... it just plants a seed for something unknown ....

I don't want to spend anymore of my life force building up another girl's future husband that ain't mine.



I'm tired, i'm exhausted... yet i can still feel this chest discomfort that just wont go away.

this demon that's now apart of me and wont leave me the ( Read more... )

I read this on someone's profile yesterday (Italianmike1986) and it just clicked:

"What I'm truly seeking out of pof is a healthy loving happy faithful loyal realationship I'm not looking for a hook up or just a **** I'm seeking something that will lead to more down the road I want to know that the person can make time for me no matter how busy they ( Read more... )

女人不能好了傷疤忘了疼，被男人背叛的感覺你忘了嗎？

男人沒一個好東西，何必再找個男人來拖累自己？自己一個人好好活著不是挺好的嗎？”她的話給了我動力，但我還是有一絲顧慮，問她，“如果這輩子都不再結婚，會不會不太好？”

.她笑了，“有什麼不好的？誰規定的女人非得結婚？反正，你要再婚也行，如果再遇到了男人背叛，我可就不管你了，我不喜歡明知婚姻有危險還重蹈覆轍的朋友。”

婚姻不易，離婚更不易，但是互相將就的婚姻，幸不幸福只有自己知道，離婚後是否要再結婚，其實就是選擇一種自己認為舒適的生活方式。
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關係再好，也要保持距離！“刺蝟取暖”的相處哲學，你做到什麼程度了？
人和人的相處，是一門學問，要做好一點，真的不容易！有時候離得太遠了，關係就淡了；可靠得太近了，恩恩怨怨就來了！人生如尺，要有度；感情如面， ( Read more... )

What he (Thomas) recently said stuck with me a bit...... 

Attachment stresses me out...

The feeling of uncertainity bothers me, makes me feel unstable, unsafe, uneasy and frankly...... a little crazy.

Dealing with Matt's constant lying over every little stupid and unncessary things, developed a paranoia that I can't control fully. He brought out some ( Read more... )

My mind always knows better.... looking at pics from 2013.. in front of FAO Schwartz.... i knew thoroughly that it wouldn't have worked...... I was super sad.... and now looking through pictures of our five years....

All I can think of was...when did we stopped being happy together? and stopped being happy with each other?

This was the person I've ( Read more... )

There's a lot of areas where we're on the same page...... where he seems super happy about, because apparently that's a rare phenomenon.

Jing spent the day referring to him as my boyfriend and thereafter...... of idea of having a boyfriend don't even sound appealing to me right now, like it's such nuisance

Dealing with people and all their nonsense ( Read more... )

I can feel my neurosis growing like vines spread wrapping an old house...

Insecurities? paranoia? or flat out because I don't trust the person I have feelings for?

Regardless, it's a very uncomfortable sensation that I don't enjoy.

All because he said he's out with friends in the middle of the night. lol I don't wanna be about that life....

I was ( Read more... )

Off putting ...

Its that same shit different day kinda feeling. . .

I'm over it.

Just so tired of everything...

---Putting thing in perspective after conversing with Mary (5/22)

And he did some shit I ain't like and I was ready to cut him loose last night

I'm just tried of all that nonsense

He knows I hate smoking, like the smell upsets me besides making ( Read more... )

I get impulsive,  neurotic and then stupid...

It was only until this morning did I realize this fate was set in stone since the last evaluation. I took the time to read it and it States that with two below performance evulation, the termination was mandatory. Frank made it seem like i still had a chance, I suppose he was hopeful still and wanted to extend my probation. I'm just curious why ( Read more... )