I feel a little lighter tonight, after talking to Faith. I didn't know that she'd been hanging onto as much guilt as I was, over the way we fell apart. But she seems good, seems like she's healing. I have hope that maybe, just maybe we can be friends--I don't really expect anything more than that. If she's finding happiness with Oz, so be it. She ( Read more... )

I drew a picture of the tentacled demon that Melaka and I fought, and left it in the office for Wes. I'm still not feeling all that at ease around him, but it's a step, I guess. Toward getting Angel Investigations back working as a team again. Even if one member of the team is gone, and it's my fault. Patrolling with Melaka helped, some. Getting ( Read more... )

I'm all...unsettled. I've been trying to get into the old routine, patrolling nights, taking a few jobs. Mostly doing it by myself, they haven't been anything big. I don't know Wood well, the others seem pretty engrossed in the whole problem of how to send Melaka back. Oz is his usual quiet self. Faith is still...I don't know, finding herself, I ( Read more... )

Things are slowly getting back to business as usual, now that Spike's out of my hair. And Nabbit decided to take Harmony on a trip to Europe--the poor guy has no clue what a fun time he's in for. But hey, some guys probably like having someone yammering in their ear constantly, what do I know? I'm amazed LA survived the combined efforts of the team ( Read more... )

We lost Gunn.

Willow told me what happened. She pulled me aside because she wanted to tell me herself, before I heard it secondhand from anyone. She and Gunn had wound up in 19th century Prussia, and they'd managed to find a way back with the help of some Svean priestesses. But something happened, and Gunn had sacrificed himself so Willow could ( Read more... )

Finally recovered enough from our excursion through limbo to leave the mansion with Harmony and Melaka and head over to Buffy's. We still weren't sure we'd made it home, though with each step we became more and more convinced ( Read more... )

I've heard of sensory deprivation before. I know what it's used for, and I know how it works. I've even used it a few times myself...or rather, it was a favorite technique of Angelus ( Read more... )

( I hate it when I'm right. )

I had enough today.

Ryan and the Partners had been jerking us along long enough. I was having my doubts that they ever intended to help Harmony and I get back home. It had never made sense that they were so willing to help, and it was too convenient that Melaka's brother had gotten involved in the first place ( Read more... )

If Cordelia were here, she'd say I was being paranoid. Hell, even Buffy would say that.

But you don't deal with the Senior Partners without a little bit of caution. Like the old joke goes, you're not paranoid if you're really out to get you.

Ever since Melaka and I got the artifact away from Harth -- or since he let us have the artifact -- we' ( Read more... )