I'm trying real hard to put on a shiney face and pretend that all these kids that suck are my 'friends'. I can't really talk to anyone about REAL shit. Cause real shit problems are oblivious to them. I'm alone in this. It dawned on me just now. No one gives a flying fuck. I'm alone in this. I'm so sick of hearing 'i don't know what to tell you'. I ( Read more... )

i can't stop crying.

my happiness is gone. all thats left is shit.

square one all over again.

so me and not so secret lover ( Read more... )

I can't wait till everyone is back in town for spring break. I really can't wait. I have a new friend. It's weird, cause he was unexpected, and pretty much like a rebound or something, but he's aight. A lil obsessive over certain things but he knows that. All I have to do is tell him to stop. :) I like him, but it's hard cause, i don't know exactly ( Read more... )

So, i feel like every paycheck my grandpa finds something mundane that I have to buy for my car. Like, oil and thats all gay and shit. It's costs enough just buying gas.

so i gots a secret lover. I thought about that early this morning. I'm not gonna lie, I liked it.

so im going to the lady parts doctor this morning. i have to prepare to be

so i pretty much work all week. Short shifts but everyday. Ridiculously early. I get about one off day a week. Completely off and it is usually wasted on doing nothing or burning gas, money, and energy looking for something to do but not really doing anything. The only other person I know that is never really doing anything always wants to have sex ( Read more... )

with the past weeks events. I can feel the impending epiphany and I am so afraid im going to miss it. I feel it. It's close and I am afraid of it, but I need it. Another fear would be, what if it never comes.

kb

so you know, how you try and play the game, then you end up talking to someone, who is someone you use to like in 10th grade, older brother.

its that, that makes me life so unimaginably insane.

I snabbed a part time at the bookstore! I am official at the fuckin bookstore! AWESOME!! I'm so happy and I'm so excited. I'm pretty speechless. I just don't know what to do with anything now. I really don't know what to do! I'm so excited and nervous because I have to get trained on so much other stuff. My awesome boss even wants to get me a pay ( Read more... )

no money or gas ( Read more... )