War Within

[vampirecola]

I just have to rant for a second. I'm in a great mood because by some miracle (Amanda) I was able to surprise my baby at work and go with her to lunch and everything. It was completely awesome, and I know I totally rocked her socks off. And despite some bullshit drama last night, I'm cooling off and looking to the future. But for some reason, just

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[xjudgementx]

No, no sir, no panic attacks, please =) Maybe you should try going to the places with memories, and make new memories with Amber..until you two can drift to a new world, and make your own memories there. It could be worth a shot, si? I have many memories, in many places, with an ex or two, and old friends..but it eventually gets to the point where you don't think about it anymore, because you've pushed it away to where it should be - in the past. It's a pain in the ass..but, all things come in time, my love! <3 Maybe I shall see you tonight? Hmmm?

Pookie- You ROCK!

[vampirecola]

Do you have any clue how much I love you, Pookie!? A lot of memories are fading and passing from blue to hot red because of Amber... and because of you. There's been a lot we've gone through and had to bear down past it, but thank you for being my friend and being by my side no matter what. I'm sure it will never go away, and I know someday nothing will really come to mind much anymore- I'm not trying to "forget" it, just hoping the thoughts that do come to mind change soon, because time is a bitch, and it's making me want to go "ROWR!!!" But other than that, you know I'm good and that I/We/Amber too/ will be fine. :) Mucho love to you, mi amor amiga. ~CoLa~

Re: Pookie- You ROCK!

[vampirecola]

I seroiusly think I need to get a big, scarlet "A" tattooed on my chest... I used to say I was going to all the time, until I got talked out of it... now I'm thinking maybe not such a bad idea... it's for the good, and the bad. Maybe even a little of the good names on one side of the A, and a few not-so-good on the other side... whatcha think? Shall I bear the mark of all my "A's" ??? You're definetely on the good... :)

Re: Pookie- You ROCK!

[xjudgementx]

Teheeee..I know I rock, you don't have to tell me ;) I looove you! Okie doke, yes, an A could be fun..tehe..as long as I'm a GOOD A. And that's what I'm here for, to help you push the memories to the past where they belong. I wish I was seeing Amber with you tonight, but I know you guys want your aloooone time ;) Mwuahaha. But, if you want to join Jimmy & I..you're both more than welcome to. I love you!!!

Although there is beauty in the breakdown...

[leleash]

As time goes by, every favorite (and not so favorite) place will have memories of someone who shared that place with you before. I don't know about you, but I am glad to have the majority of my memories, regardless of the situation at present. You sound really happy and I think you should soak up that happiness and try and let go of the unrest and anger that some places and people trigger for you. Just my 2 cents, given regardless of whether they're wanted, warranted or not.
Wishing you the best,
Alisha

Consider listening to "Let go" by Frou Frou

Re: Although there is beauty in the breakdown...

[vampirecola]

I appreciate any comments from you, especially on this particular topic. It's not so much the letting go, it's the not having to think about it automatically. I know it will pass, but just that one day really got to me, and I just had to rant. I'm over it now, but am thankful none-the-less for your two, maybe even three, cents. :) Thanks for the warm wishes, and right back at ya. With my chin up and a new day abroad, I know I'll be okay, and that happiness will soak me up. Hope for the same to you. ~CoLa~

[kkduckie05]

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