I just have to rant for a second. I'm in a great mood because by some miracle (Amanda) I was able to surprise my baby at work and go with her to lunch and everything. It was completely awesome, and I know I totally rocked her socks off. And despite some bullshit drama last night, I'm cooling off and looking to the future. But for some reason, just ( Read more... )

I just have to say, I can't remember the last time (if ever) I was this fucking happy! I can't honestly say I've felt quite like this before. I've felt things close to it, or convinced myself I felt more than I really did, but 100% pure, true happy in-love... Never! Not until now. Not until Amber. Now until Forever. It almost feels like the rest of ( Read more... )

So, I had to seriously think about this before finally deciding to do it. I've felt so alive and inspired lately, and I was motivated to actually WRITE! Like, not journaling or scribbling a few lines down, or any more of my cheesy poetry... but I fucking wrote!!! I debated whether or not to copy this onto my LiveJournal or MySpace, but ultimately ( Read more... )

I'M ALIVE!!! And I mean this in so many ways... for one because I haven't written in prolly forever, I don't even know where to begin with catching up- but I also mean it in the sense that I've had the greatest fucking weekend IN MY LIFE!! And nothing can stop me from smiling. I went on a little camping trip (finally) and coming back home to all ( Read more... )

So, being the sentimental and hopeless sap that I am, I was looking through some "old" shit just a while ago, and I stumbled upon something I wanted to put in here. I don't often do this because it's torturing myself in some way, but every now and then I just can't help myself. This is from Summer of 2004 (lawdy lawdy, that summer) I was in a unit ( Read more... )

because I'm obviously pathetic and don't know any better. Yet I continue to do it, day in and day out. So many people have called it so many different things, so what is it? I'm a loser, I'm a glutton, I'm too deep in love? Well, to save from another mental breakdown, let's just stick with in love. I just can't help myself. I swear, I need therapy ( Read more... )

...and yet sinking down further, still. Excuse me Mr. Hardship and Depression, can you move, I think you're sitting on my chest. A real update to come- once I've fit the pieces of the puzzle back together.

So, I wrote last about my tattoo, and at the time I was all happy about it, because I was so tired I just kinda fell asleep not thinking about it. But when I woke up and had Drea help me clean it, I realized that there are a lot of crooked lines and it's not a dark enough blue and the yellow you pretty much can't even see. >:( So I have to wait ( Read more... )

I promise I'm not writing much this time... I'm a bit tired and I just wanna curl up in bed and watch some Queer as Folk. Been having some interesting conversations lately... like I've become a sex guru or something (?) Even my brother Michael had some questions for me today- which was kinda weird (even for me.) All in all things are cool. Hung out ( Read more... )

I was going to write a little earlier, but I kinda didn't feel like it... and then Queer as Folk was on, so I HAD to go watch that, and then I thought of watching or doing something else, but then I remembered I was going to try to write more often, and whether I liked it or not, I needed to suck it up and just write something. Currently, the only ( Read more... )