purging

[vanilla_coaster]

so, recently some sort of automatic gag reflex has been occuring everytime i eat; no matter how small. I know that this is bad, but my feelings of joy and relief that i no longer have to dwell on the 'what if i cant get it up' obsession is so comforting and way out weights the small part of me that is concious of the risks. The truth is, i enjoy

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[heartbrokenfake]

i get that thing were it feels like the smallest amount of food could just randomly come up too. i always feel like i have to barf if i even eat the smallest thing! its worse with soda, today i was walking down the hall after school drinking a diet coke and suddenly it felt like it was all just coming up and i gagged. so embarresing! thank goodness nothing did come up!

[vanilla_coaster]

totally. it happens all the time when i'm eatin with my family. ew. sometimes i'll go to hold it in and it'll like go up my nose. SO painful. and embarassing cause its like: uh... what just happend there....