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[vanilla_coaster]

I just cant seem to stop these scenarios going through my mind. i am convinced that if i were to just loose weight all my problems would be solved. I lie away at night and dream up situations where i am beautiful and confident and people like me and love me. Of course they all involve mike... and at first i was convinced that that was just becuase

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[toughlovin00]

im really sorry that you feel so helpless and lost. i really wish that there was something i could do to help you... but there isnt.
i've felt like that many times. i know its not exactly the same, but i understand your feelings so well, especially in terms of being thin making things so much better.
its so easy to feel helpless. i am glad that you can vent in writing, but i wonder if you have a therapist or soemone else you can talk to in real life?
it sounds stupid sometimes but it can help a lot
<3 things can only go up from here

[vanilla_coaster]

ya last week i went to my school councellor and i think i'm going to go to him once a week now... the only thing is is that hes a guy and i just dont think i'd be able to vent about my weight problems to a guy... its just a wierd thing i have... you give me so much support already. just by commenting on my entries and proving that people actually listen just does so much. thank you:)
xoxo

[toughlovin00]

glad i can help. i go to my school counselor who is a guy and i thought it would be weird but i really like him. he may not completley understand in terms of eating disorder stuff, but he had a drug problem and he sees how they can be similar. i encourage you to definitley talk to more people, it helps!!

take care
-maggie

[vanilla_coaster]

you such a sweetie! you always post on my lj and i barely know anything about you:) tell me about yourself:)