we can rebuild her

[vanillabeani]

and even though i like the old me in these pages.. i feel almost like i'm decaying rather than changing

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[vanillabeani]

some things might be better left over... who knows.

[sagefemme11]

Sounds like you've got all brands of introspection going on. Sending you quietude.

[vanillabeani]

quietude is always appreciated

[jamie_miller]

urges, eh?

[vanillabeani]

yes and no.

[deadboyx13]

I totally understand. I have weird urges sometimes to destroy what life I have and restart a new somewhere else as someone else. But then I take a gander at what all I have accomplished when at one time I was a different person and I had already done the whole restart thing to the point that I was once homeless and it has led me here. So I must be here at this point for some reason in my mind. Some reason I have been brought or have brought myself here.

One of my favorite authors is Chuck Palahniuk.

While he says "Only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit."

he also states " We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. "

he is a wise man.

[vanillabeani]

i've only seen the movie version of Fight Club, but it's easily one of my favorites..i have several friends who love his writing, so i'm guessing i would, as well.

it's on my list of reads if i ever get time to read for fun again..lol.

alternate realities- we've all got so many.

[vanillabeani]

:) indeed.. i find that i rummage through lots of fluff and garbage before i can find one person that is just right to really interact with.

looking forward to doing just that.