no memories from anger and no anger from memories

[vanishinghope]

do u ever want to just start over? just go away to another place and meet new people and grow up again with no memories and no scars. just you and your life and you doing it right? you wouldnt screw it up this yime. you wouldnt have gotten this low. you can start over

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[2cold2thnkright]

a wish that Ive had....no doubt....
if you did leave with no memories then I would be far worse off and so much more in a mess and then I would have no one to talk to as easy

[vanishinghope]

i guess so....just like in your book-u had 3 ppl-i have one-one person i can talk 2-one person who understands more than anyone else-the only person i can count on to make a guest apperance on my cd and say "it tickle my ear!"

[2cold2thnkright]

guest apperance?? what?? I thought I was touring with you guys....psh there goes my one shot at fame......

[vanishinghope]

haha well its supposed to be a surprise that ur touring with us so youll pop out and the crowd will go even crazier-that way they wont expect it....so shhhh dont tell anyone that ur touring with us too lol

[myimmortal834]

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This probably won't make a difference or help or w/e but I will still say it.

[balletbabe911]

Ethan well think about this way If you started over somewhere new you would have nvr met me. Or heard about Lucy then u wouldn't kno about her incrediblness and hottness. And there wouldn't be poodles or french poodles which ever kind of poodles you prefer. And there would be no fun times w/ Ethan. Nope none of it. And what would Josh do???? If he didn't have u I have no idea. Let alone what would OCS do?!?!?1 It would be Ethanless!!!! AHHH!!!!!!! Well you rock don't leave OCS cuz we will miss u!!! luv ya!!!!!!

Re: This probably won't make a difference or help or w/e but I will still say it.

[vanishinghope]

yeah....i dono tho cuz its just....ahhh no fun....

im in pain because i lied to myself as much as she did, this isnt a she to be noted by others, this is a she only i can know and tell, because she doesnt even know that its her, but its kinda funny cuz i put myself in this...haha...but thats her laughing,pain can only be felt if it is experienced, and it hurts to go through that, but then you can honestly tell yourself that it was worth it, because you know it your heart u gave something up to see it, you gave up your bliss, for a slight bit of pain, but looking back at my life, through the red bleeding eyes of pain, i realize, that pain...thgrough experience....is all you remember.....

meaning:i dont remember the way she looked, just the way she looked at him

[_smearedblacink]

i wish....the world.....would shut....up.....i hate....everything here....dont add....me....goodbye

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[vanishinghope]

thanks for the encouragement TeElle.....