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[vanishingslowly]

Nothing much happening lately...as usual..nothing ever happens anymore..I have heard every excuse that exsist i swear to god...I hate life...hate....its so cruel...i cant take this bullshit anymore..getting hurt...getting used and walked all over....i hate it....hate...

~Vanishing Soul

Comments

[ladiankh79]

Life bites! People suck, life is cruel.

Somedays are easier than others.

I spent years being walked all over and being used. I had my breaking point where I decided that if one more person used me, abused me, or shit on me in general, I was going to flip th f*ck out on them until I felt better.

I did, it worked and I haven't really let anyone do those things to me since. Granted some of it is confidence, some I have stolen from others in idolizing them, some I have created on my own with tiny victories over time. It is learning to pick your battles.

B*tch*ng out your boss and losing your job=not a good time to assert yourself.
Bugging out on someone that has hurt you= the perfect excuse to show them what it feels like.

[flamegirl_kitty]

I don't know what it is about people, but it seems as if all they generally want to do it "hurt". I don't know if I'll ever figure it out but as a female, I've avoided way too many guys because I know they're out to use and/or abuse me. I've ended up isolating myself because of this and feel hopeless in someone who wants to look into the soul, someone who wants to get to know *me*. Right now if anyone gets to know me, they'll be scared and run away... as you can probably tell by reading parts of my journal.

Sometimes having nothing happening in your life is better than having it spiraling out of control. Maybe we'll have to figure out together what it is about people that causes them to be near- sociopathic to hurt without regret.