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[vanishingslowly]

yeah...didnt go to work the other day...gonna get a different job anyways...one that is not..as stressful, but yeah which means i pretty much quit / got fired....it was weird...i dont know...but now i have to get another job which shouldnt be to hard...i can wash dishes for like $5 an hour..better than nothing...still got to pay $50 a week so...

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Freakin out man (the eyes)

[essencedespair]

Hey man, just wanted to say hey and that im thinkin about ya.
missin the old times like always.
, im havin a convo with a certain someone... you know her. the one who said your the god of "S" (tryin to avoid names here)

Me: hows that new guy that you like?
Her: good
Her: he asked me out last night
Her: and i siad yes
Me: awesome :-)
Her: yea
Her: im happy for the first time in a long time
Me: thats good
Her: yea

that sort of shit pisses me off... "happy for the first time in a long time", man fuck that shit. she never appreciates the shit that people did for her. she never remembers all the shit i put up for her, never fucking cares. never credits me for anything good i did, just fuckin uses me man.

Sorry to vent like this, its just hard to deal with the way she treats me... like she doesnt even care about me.

Matt

ugh

[essencedespair]

miss talkin to ya.

you should read my lj...

[ladiankh79]

You post about as much as I do.

Where you been?

Missing your vague and anti-social posts....starting to feel like I am out here by myself again.

-Ladi

[essencedespair]

hey.
i am a local friend of his. Just wanted to give you an update.
He has been staying at his aunt's lately, he does babysitting for her now. They have no computer so he really cant get online.
I got to hang out with him recently, so that was nice :)

If he doesn't update this, i might insert what i know for you.

Matthew