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[vareshe]

i don't think even closest of friends realize how much bottled frustration i carry around with me. i don't even hide it particularily well. my inability to deal with things out of my control, of when things just go wrong, it rules my life. when things go wrong and i can't fix it, i break down. i've been like this all my life. i haven't figured out

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[vareshe]

the coupon thing was a recent hobby i picked up! i decided it was time to save up for a possible home/kids/car/etc in the near future, and couponing is a low key way to keep me feeling like i'm getting a bargain without actually spending money. :p i only use them to make money off of FAR (free after rebate) deals at rite aid.

[pixie_bebe]

have you ever thought of talking to a professional about your frustrations/episodes/panic attacks? what you describe is very familiar to me b/c that is my mother right there. and as someone who grew up with that, i've inherited the same behaviors and have had to work really hard and very consciously to control my mood swings. i believe it's totally behavioral and conditioned - and, therefore, changeable... it's not the not remembering where the coupon is, but the emotional response to not being able to locate the coupon and the quality of life that can improve by learning how to modulate that response.

just a thought. hope i didn't step out of line...

:)

[vareshe]

i'm sort of the opposite. i don't believe it's behavioral or conditioned, more genetic and chemical balance related. :p it completely runs in the family on my father's side. my mother's side has depression.

[santoki]

Dude...you gotta roll with the punches otherwise life will suck. Seriously, do you really get THAT mad over things like a coupon? If this is seriously affecting your life, seeing someone about it is a good idea.

[vareshe]

typical guy response. :p you're taking things too literally, obviously i was in a bad mood and a string of other things had happened recently to lead up to this point! the straw breaking the camel's back so to speak.

[jayamei]

i understand getting mad when i'm already in a mood where something small can make a good day really bad. it totally sucks. when i'm looking forward to something and expect something to happen or to be exactly as i imagined, there seems no possibility that things will not happen as i plan. then when something does go wrong i feel mad at whatever poor person fucked up my day who has NO IDEA why i'm so mad, or mad at myself for ASSUMING things are going to be as i imagined. if i've been having a bad week and this is the last straw it is hard to get over it. but: usually this doesn't happen to me very often (mostly because.. ok you know me, i hardly ever plan a damn thing

[vareshe]

it's always been a control thing for me, but the shampoo thing really pissed me off b/c of my bad memory. my memory is getting SO BAD, i really feel my brain cells are dying off early or something

[b_1]

coupons make me angry too. especially when I forget to use them and they expire.

[vareshe]

i'm glad when they expire; then i can throw them away instead of having them clutter up my clutter drawer. :p