It has been forever since I have so much as even been on lj so why I am commenting now simply eludes me. I just don't know why but it seems like everything in my life has simply blown up in my face in the past year. Why does it seem the harder you try to make others happy that you lose happiness yourself, is it a direct equation? Is it ( Read more... )

It's weird how you can watch something so many times and never catch it. I was just sitting yesterday watching my Trigun dvd's (yes its that anime i love so fondly lol) and i heard Wolfwood (one of the other main characters) say something to Vash that i never caught that aboslutly amazed me ( Read more... )

Well as probobly everyone has heard i totalled my car in a bad wreck monday evening. I'm sorry if i've seemed quite or secluded for the past week but everytime i get a free moment i sit and think what if that could have been it? What if i could have died there? When i came to, there was a piece of windshield not 3 inches from my face. So now i sit ( Read more... )

I think Relient k is becoming one of my favorite bands lol. Here's one of there best songs if you've never heard this you really need to listen to it because it's simply great ( Read more... )

lol is it me or the more that you try to make things better, the worse the outcome? well i guess thats irony for ya. Well school has been going for a little over a week now and i'm already feeling drained. Between school, band, and golf alone i think i'm going to drive myself insane! Or maybe i'm just realizing i already am lol. I finally got some ( Read more... )

Call me out ( Read more... )

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret ( Read more... )

All around me are familiar faces ( Read more... )

Why do I sit here and act like i'm doing ok, when in reality i'm dying bit by bit on the inside? Why can't i ignore these feelings like I always have? Why can't i just say everything will be ok? Has all the pain inside of me finally taken hold? Will it drag me into it's clutches and pull me into it's eternal darkness? I don't want this. I just want ( Read more... )

This time, This place ( Read more... )