you all really do not understand. this is how i see it, and quite frankly, how everyone should see it: i am gay... i kissed a girl -- not a boy, who would obviously be a threat to mine and nick's relationship. i have no feelings for girls, so i just cannot understand how anyone could think of this as cheating or a threat. the reasoning for my earlier post was to point out that i had made a mistake... i can see how its lyrical content could be misconstrued, so i deleted the post. i really think that some people need to sit down and try to see things from my point of view...
i know you're gay derek. trust me; i've known it for years. but i still don't understand why you did it? was it to test yourself? and if so, why did you feel you needed to? were you having feelings for her? a crush? i don't want you to feel like you're being attacked here. i just don't understand why anything happened. i love you.
i'm not really sure why it happened either. it was not initiated by me, yet i am somehow the bad guy here. go figure. i mean, how am i the only culprit here? seriously, i felt that she was testing my sexuality, so i guess i felt i needed to prove to her that girls do not turn me on. we were sitting around giggling, in a sense having "girl talk" all night, and i just did not see it as a threat or the way you all are seeing it. i guess, in my eyes, it was innocent -- proving a point. yes, it was a mistake, it never should have happened. i am gay, i kissed a girl, i am being punished.
Re: I'm not apart of Cherri WaitressgraaceFebruary 1 2004, 20:10:48 UTC
I know I'm not apart of Cherri Waitress but, I do feel like I have to say something here, Nick: I can see why you are upset, I would be too. But the thing is Derek is gay, thats what it comes down to. I love you, and I don't want anyone to think I'm taking sides. I'm NOT. (I have no right to,(I'm not a Cherri Waitress)). Derek: I' m unsure of why you did the things you did, but I know you're gay, plain and simple. Thats that. It ment nothing. And I know you didn't mean to hurt anyone. Mary: Feel put in the middle??? I know you know Derek, and I can see what your saying: why?; me too, but once again, plain and simple, Derek's gay! Patti: I don't know you, I wish I did. And what I'm about to say may stop my friendship with a lot of people, but this is the way I see things......... Derek once told me you told everyone you liked Nick, this pissed me off, I think you had know place to come into their relationship, the next thing I know is I'm reading, you kissed Derek and you have a crush on him!!! WHAT!!!! You keep talking about how you
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Brian, you both have just started your lives!
anonymous
February 1 2004, 21:47:57 UTC
Brian and Derek, if you were friends before all this happened you will continue to stay friends. If you weren't then go on with your life and remember the words to "The Dance"! Love and disappointments hurt but it is a learning process. If you guys can't talk this out so that you can remain friends then having all the memories that meant so much to you both, is not meaningful now but will be later on. Life isn't fair sometimes but you both are so young and will have many loves in your life. Enjoy them while they last, make beautiful memories and know that you loved once. Believe me, I have been through what you are going through many many times. Life is too short and you never know what tomorrow will bring. Enjoy your friends, family and lovers as long as you can. And if you can't talk to each other, please talk to someone! Don't hold it in! I love you guys! Granny
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I AM GAY, FUCK ANYONE WHO THINKS OTHERWISE!
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