Pierced heart

[vasudeva_dasa]

Aaaarggghhh...I'm becoming crazy of myself. The contact with Philip has reached a very low point. I think it is like 1 message a day. I don't know what to expect, but my hopes are very low now

Comments

[nitaigouranga]

Dude (hugs) don't put yourself through a rollercoaster so soon. It's only been a few days, and you can only text so much, also people get busy and there are those of us who just hate texting. It's a horrible way of keeping contact with someone, specially when you've had hardly any real time together. Things will probably be fine when you get to meet and hang out properly. Any plans?

[vasudeva_dasa]

Thanx, I hope you are right and part of me knows you are right. It would be much better if we would actually meet and have a drink or so. But so far no plans are made. I hope it will happen though!

[die_to_live]

don't give up yet... it's the getting to know eachother stage... who knows he might be feeling the same as you :-)

[vasudeva_dasa]

I doubt he feels the same, since it is him who is always waiting ages to reply. But I do think it would be lots better if we could meet and have a decent face to face talk, instead of sending messages. I won't give up yet, but I have serious doubts that he's interested. Time will tell I guess.

[nitaigouranga]

is there some ancient belgium custom i'm not aware off where nobody asks anyone else for a coffee?????

kiddin, but yeah, why don't you?

[vasudeva_dasa]

Haha, you are so right! I guess there is nothing worng with asking him to go for a coffee. It's just with the things that happened for him last year, I don't wanna push him, because I know he is still very vulnerable. But I just texted if he is going out this weekend. It's a start right? :-)

[myownyoko]

if memory serves philip's lover lost his life to an illness or some accident? he might falter at first, he may be unsure. regardless of what philip does, distance yourself from the results that carry dissapointment under their wings. if he can't play it right yet, receive it as the beautiful thing that it is. you've managed to break through what can be a very confusing and lonely time for him.

i still have great faith that there is a strong bond between you two. he is the first guy i have seen you really long for since you have truly let go of feelings for juan. that makes him very unique in my eyes.

i think we can be so accustomed to feelings of despair and dissapointment in these moments because it is the most familiar outcome. in this way we can end up rushing things towards an incorrect conclusion simply out of old vision.

let your moments with philip be free of past fears and release yourself to be free to experience a new path.

[vasudeva_dasa]

Thanx Tre, for your very sweet and good advice. You are so right. I haven't felt like this for anyone since Juan. That's why I am so afraid it wouln't work out. But you are right. I think what we are doing now is already a breaktrough for him. I have to take it step by step and trust my intuition. I was just disappointed this morning, because I had really expected a message. (he did send a nice one an hour ago) :-)

[vasudeva_dasa]

Yes, you are right. This texting is so impersonal and it isn't the most easy way to communicate. Also, we don't have much previous communication to fall back on. So I hope we'll meet soon and we can bring the communication to a next level. Thanx for your advice!