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blah

Feb 01, 2005 02:04

I hate my life, I hate myself. I hate everything about me. There's nothing to like, just look at me. I love Kayla but she doesn't love me back and I have a suspisicon that she doesn't care. Don't really blame her. I was a bad boyfriend anyways, there are so many better guys out there than me. Breaking up w/me was prbly the smartest decision ( Read more... )

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angedemal February 2 2005, 08:34:33 UTC

Aaron, I wish you wouldn't put your self down because you are a great guy. Everybody needs love and your going to find it. I know you will. I am sorry I hurt you so bad, truely I am, and I do care believe it or not. For the most part I was scared because I didn't know what would happen and as I told you before I suck at relationships. I am so sorry. I can't take you back, and we both know that, but the idea becomes somewhat enjoyable. Why I don't know, and if I did know I would let you know but I don't. Like I said I have no idea what is going on and I am a very skeptical person and I am not trying to make excuses its just that thats me. I can't change me as hard I possibly try and no matter what I do I always fail miserably so please understand this: It wasn't ever you. You are a great, nice sweet funny guy, a little clingy but thats about it and I am a slutt. I was planning to break up with you so I could go out with another guy and for that I am very very sorry. I never cheated on you but another guy comes along and I am all over ( ... )

Message from God.... ferocious_fuzzy February 2 2005, 11:47:21 UTC

"My child, people ask of Me many things every day. On some things, I am very happy to say 'yes' to. Others, it makes Me weep that I cannot give you. Please understand, My child, that I do not say no to spite you, but that you will learn and grow to a better plan that I have laid out for you if you will let Me ( ... )

Re: Message from God.... angedemal February 2 2005, 12:44:43 UTC

you are quite smart LC. and For that I give kudos to you. Thanks for it and I know I am a flake (pretty sad I can admit it isn't it?) Anyways I would very much enjoy being friends with Aaron. and again Thank You so much.

Re: Message from God.... killerblade February 2 2005, 22:26:58 UTC

Kayla...how can I be your friend? I still cry over you. I trusted you. I left another girl to be with you. I put my everything into our relationship, and you didn't even put a little bit into it. I was commited to you, and you left me for someone else who doesn't care, doesn't love you and just wants you for sex. You abandonded me. How do I know that you won't abandon me again? How do I know that when my life gets rough again that you won't run away? How do I know that when I'm sitting there with the knife to my wrist or neck or chest, that you won't push it in? Every night, even tho I know he doesn't listen, I pray to God that I will get you back, and I know I won't. I cry sometimes when I go to sleep, and occasionally I'm crying when I wake up, and my pillow is soaked from me crying while I slept. Heartbroken, heartsick, and crushed, I lay here quivering. I am with someone else, but my heart will always belong to you even though I am not good enough for you.
Soon to be dead,
-Aaron

Re: Message from God.... angedemal February 3 2005, 09:10:11 UTC

Aaron, you weren't committed to me. You were obsessed. You wouldn't even let me hang out with my friends on New Year's Eve. You made me feel guilty all the time because I could never see you and You always made me feel like I was the reason you cut yourself. I didn't like that feeling. I didn't like becoming the problem to your cutting. I want to be your friend and be there for you but I can't be obsessed, and you can't be my world. Likewise with me being your world. I have alot of hopes and dreams and I am still in Highschool. I can't make you my top priority because I set those a long time ago and I won't switch them because I want to make something of myself. Your sweet and Kind and lovable and you should know that I want to be around you for those main reasons. You being depressed makes me feel guilty regardless of how you may think I don't care. I do Aaron. I think about you almost every night hoping that your not dead in a ditch somewhere because that would suck. The world is not that ugly of a place. Its what you make it and ( ... )

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angedemal February 4 2005, 03:35:24 UTC

its time to start a new beginning. Aaron you don't have to go through those things anymore. You can end this chapter and move on to the next.

repition killerblade February 4 2005, 21:33:33 UTC

You don't undertand Kayla, it's the same thing over and over again. It's the same thing, once I start to trust someone they screw me over and break my heart, the second I begin to love someone they reject me, like you did. There is no escape from it, except death.
-Aaron

angedemal February 12 2005, 09:29:54 UTC

Sorry I didn't call you back last night, I was at a dance at school so i didn't get your call. Don't worry I am not mad at you, but you did hurt my feelings when you yelled at me, but its ok because I probably deserved it. Anyways I hope your doing ok.