Thinking of you (drabble)
Tittle : Thinking of You
Author : vee
Rate : PG
Warning : none~
Pairing : UruhaxAoi
PS : Aoi's POV ^^
A/N : I have posted this entry on my fb, but i hope u like it =)
Thinking of you
Why? Doushite? This is getting weirder and weirder. I know my self well ne. I know what kind of feeling I have to you. I know it. It isn’t stupid girly-love. It’s not like hell stupid feeling I ever have before. It’s…. definitely indescribable.
I don’t love you.
I never did.
I’m bi. But I know I never ever in love with you.
There is no butterfly-feeling in my belly when I see you with someone else. Things that you gave to me never mean important to me.
But
It’s weird that I always remember all things that you like.
It’s really weird that you are always in mind.
It’s weird that I always do my best to impress you, to make you give me a lil smile and say, ‘that was great!’ or ‘that’s sound pretty good’. (Oh, you should know how much energy I used just to make you said that!)
I always happy if I could see that stupid grin on your face, and somehow sad if I see your folded face. I want to ask “what happen?” to you. But I know you won’t tell me. So I never ask it.
All I want is throw you out of my brain.
But I can’t.
You’re always there.
Yelling, laughing, and talking without an end.
Oh man….
I’m really fuckin’ tired with this entire stupid thing!
WHO THE HELL ARE YOU, MAN?
You are NOT my damn lovers.
You are not my best friend who always there for me when I need your help.
WHO ARE YOU?
I ask that question endlessly into my self.
And yet, I never find the answer.
You are nothing to me.
I’m so sure I could live on this life without you.
Oh, can I?
It’s totally fine if I could define what kind of feeling is this.
It’s fine if there somebody could give me PROPHER explanation about this entire things.
Hm…
Maybe, all of you will say,
“Oh come on Aoi-kun. How stupid you are. Isn’t it easier to say that you love him?”
Yeah.. Maybe all of will say that thing to me. But, you need to know that he’s not that damn precious. I never want to protect him or keep him for my self.
I just…..
I can’t take eyes off him.
Stupid, right?
No, don’t you expect we’ll be a couple like Bella and Edward. DEFINITELY NOT! I know deep inside my heart I don’t love him. Neither does him.
But I also know that he knows I give him more attention than I usually give to minna-san. And he enjoys it. Very enjoy it. He knows he is my weakness. He knows I will always there for him.
Do you think he’s playing me?
No he doesn’t.
My instinct said that he doesn’t play me.
Uruha-san.
Let’s continue this weird friendship between us.
I hope you I also play some part in your brain theater *laugh
Hahaha
I’m joking…
Let’s always be a good friends.
Author : vee
Rate : PG
Warning : none~
Pairing : UruhaxAoi
PS : Aoi's POV ^^
A/N : I have posted this entry on my fb, but i hope u like it =)
Thinking of you
Why? Doushite? This is getting weirder and weirder. I know my self well ne. I know what kind of feeling I have to you. I know it. It isn’t stupid girly-love. It’s not like hell stupid feeling I ever have before. It’s…. definitely indescribable.
I don’t love you.
I never did.
I’m bi. But I know I never ever in love with you.
There is no butterfly-feeling in my belly when I see you with someone else. Things that you gave to me never mean important to me.
But
It’s weird that I always remember all things that you like.
It’s really weird that you are always in mind.
It’s weird that I always do my best to impress you, to make you give me a lil smile and say, ‘that was great!’ or ‘that’s sound pretty good’. (Oh, you should know how much energy I used just to make you said that!)
I always happy if I could see that stupid grin on your face, and somehow sad if I see your folded face. I want to ask “what happen?” to you. But I know you won’t tell me. So I never ask it.
All I want is throw you out of my brain.
But I can’t.
You’re always there.
Yelling, laughing, and talking without an end.
Oh man….
I’m really fuckin’ tired with this entire stupid thing!
WHO THE HELL ARE YOU, MAN?
You are NOT my damn lovers.
You are not my best friend who always there for me when I need your help.
WHO ARE YOU?
I ask that question endlessly into my self.
And yet, I never find the answer.
You are nothing to me.
I’m so sure I could live on this life without you.
Oh, can I?
It’s totally fine if I could define what kind of feeling is this.
It’s fine if there somebody could give me PROPHER explanation about this entire things.
Hm…
Maybe, all of you will say,
“Oh come on Aoi-kun. How stupid you are. Isn’t it easier to say that you love him?”
Yeah.. Maybe all of will say that thing to me. But, you need to know that he’s not that damn precious. I never want to protect him or keep him for my self.
I just…..
I can’t take eyes off him.
Stupid, right?
No, don’t you expect we’ll be a couple like Bella and Edward. DEFINITELY NOT! I know deep inside my heart I don’t love him. Neither does him.
But I also know that he knows I give him more attention than I usually give to minna-san. And he enjoys it. Very enjoy it. He knows he is my weakness. He knows I will always there for him.
Do you think he’s playing me?
No he doesn’t.
My instinct said that he doesn’t play me.
Uruha-san.
Let’s continue this weird friendship between us.
I hope you I also play some part in your brain theater *laugh
Hahaha
I’m joking…
Let’s always be a good friends.