I don't want to talk about it

[veeeyloova]

I went to my first pre-natal dr's appt. today. I knew something was wrong when the Dr. repeatedly asked me during the sonogram when my last period was. I was sent back to the waiting room after being told that he was having a hard time seeing the fetus (it can happen with women like me who are carrying a few extra pounds around their mid-section)

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[bezigebij]

Witnessing miscarriages, I have come to believe that they are one of the most difficult losses to process. Seemingly less tangible than the loss of a child that is already born, but in so many ways the loss is the same. Or it can be. Allow yourself to mourn and don't be afraid to talk about it if you need to. It can hurt like a bitch and it's alright to admit that.

Sterkte.

[veeeyloova]

Oh, it hurts like a bitch. That I know.

[sucktastic]

<3<3<3
i'm really sorry.

[veeeyloova]

thank you.

[ellyjonez]

oh my god. that is really sad. i am so sorry. are you doing okay? you sound fairly okay in this entry but?

[veeeyloova]

I'm doing... ok. but it fluctuates. i'm ok one minute, and then I'm crying.
I was pretty numb when I wrote that. I'm numb now, getting ready to go to the hospital.

[weebleeds]

oh, i am so sorry to hear this :( *hugs* my sympathies and thoughts go out to you...

[veeeyloova]

thanks :)

[radiocity]

jeez, chris. i'm sorry. i don't know what to tell you.

[veeeyloova]

:) thanks
i appreciate that you don't know what to say. I know I'm being bitchy and bitter, but i've heard enough platitudes this week. i appreciate honest uncertainty over being told that 'everything happens for a reason'.
christ.