My life ends now. I have been reborn. My new life begins tommorow.

I thought she was flirting. Oh well. No more. It's time to become a higher power. My ending goal in life? Become Emotionless. But before that, i'm gonna find out who i am. I'm gonna sever all ties from canal. Im going to explore the world, go skydiving, then maybe settle in california.

So what's your dream?

I feel like im dying. Slowly. I'm noticing a lot more pain going on in my body. Sometimes my heartbeat skips, and then there's my legs. If you've seen me, i've been struggling to walk lately. Also, i've been waking up with terrible headaches. I'm scared beyond belief, but i dont want to see a doctor. They never help. I just want to know... ( Read more... )

I know it's not psychologically healthy to think like this, but i think, it would be a lot better to live in the olden days. Like way back when in the far east. Each day, it could've been your last. Fighting with simple weapons like swords and staves. Dying on the battlefield, defending for what's right, Proclaiming justice with the swing of a ( Read more... )

Ah, Homecoming was really great! Though, i need a bigger group. I felt like some people didnt want to talk to me and shot me very very dirty looks. That killed my night almost instantly. And the constant "you suck asian." "I hate you asian" really got to me tonight. It usually doesn't because i know they're just playing around but it really ( Read more... )

Why am i feeling lonely?

Over the summer I was feeling like i had everything under control. But now...i feel lonely. Like there's an empty part of me, that im missing something from my life. I want it back. If you have it, give it back.

Everything's all weird this year. One minute i'm loving everything and then all of a sudden i just want to grab someone and shove them into a wall. Health class look out. Some of them piss me off so much. If anyone in that class is reading this, you know what im talking about. Plus i think you can actually see a vein pop out on my forehead ( Read more... )

I hate the bitch that's supposedly my mother. I want to be as far away from her as i can. I dont care what you guys say "oh it's just a phase, everyone hates their mom" but No. She's a demanding controlling manipulative bitch who always wants to get her way. Fuck people like her, fuck her. I do things right, and i get yelled at for not doing ( Read more... )

I guess all my frustration from the beginning of the school year finally let itself out last night, and i didn't mention everything because i felt that it wasn't needed. I'm alright now. You guys have nothing to worry about. Every once in a while my seratonnin levels drop dramatically, due to heredity and genetics. I got this genetical ( Read more... )

Time to get everything out i guess. I'm not feeling so well. There's something about my family and depression. I feel like Kara's ignoring me for a reason, and i just feel horrible about it. Not only that but i felt so out of place among my friends. But also the thing is i dont want to go get myself analyzed for depression. Nor do i want to ( Read more... )